Continuing from Day 552: Is God to Blame for War?
At this stage I entered the education field, specifically initially with mathematics because that was what was available. I was satisfied that mathematics could be taught in a way that could make the human being a better person. Because in applying mathematics they could make decisions in a more calculated way and that from my experience, the human being in essence is good if their environment supports such goodness. There was goodwill in men, and that they only become evil when their environment impulse them to be evil and they are in a survival mode so to speak. Obviously many of these points would be challenged in the years to come, as I watch mankind spiralling into in itself a demonic force that simply wouldn’t give each other a chance unless you adhere to the rules - which I have already learned through my own direct experience - was in fact harmful and deliberate, deceptive and destructive which is the principles of capitalism. Yes, don’t react to that because I will explain in time why.
This was something that was already quite clear at that stage although I did understand that without the money, without a way to generate the income – one will not bring about a better world, and I endeavoured to find ways to empower people especially within the realms of money because then they can explore the potential of their own goodwill. That seemed to be challenged though in time.
But at this stage still very clearly to me God was good and great. I didn’t as such at that stage speak to angels, I was more interested to hear the stories from the people that would talk through the deep trance medium. Quite interesting, there was quite a number of people that would come and try and leave messages to their loved ones on earth. The primary message was that they were alive and that or they would want to be forgiven or that things was different to what it was taught, but nothing was clearly placed, there was always like an interference. There was a gate keeper, a door keeper with the trance that would only allow certain messages and that would be placed to me as being the will of God, that is what God allows – and I never questioned that. I mean, I have accepted God as the ultimate force and as the fathering force, as the origin, as the creator completely at that stage. And we will explore God in my next book which is ‘Meeting God’ where I will explain the experience of that.
Now during this time in working with education, I explored eventually the way or ways to educate or teach reading skills in a way that it becomes available to everyone in the world, because that through my own experience was proven to me to be one of the most important things/skills/abilities a human being should have. But there was no movement in the education system towards developing these skills in any effective way, and in spite of many endeavours and discussions even up to governmental task force level and proving in front of them, the group/assessors, that one can take a seemingly ‘disabled child’, one that has got learning disabilities, and within a short period of time prove to the child that they don’t in fact have the disability, that it is purely a social condition. In spite of all of that, the decision that was made in terms of reading skills in the education was not based on what’s best for the children. It was based on money and who was making money out of the point, and therefore the product we presented was simply sidelined and because we didn’t come up with any way of benefitting the governmental people, that means buying them off, we just simply were not part of the solution.
When it became clear that that would be the way we’ll have to go and I refused to go that way and then approached it differently in terms of really starting to push the point of making it available at home and in school in as many ways as possible, and in the same time developing a force that will be presenting it regularly, realizing one thing, that if your sales force make enough money they will be dedicated to the product. People are not at that stage, I found, were not able to or willing to dedicate their life to just a cause, they are interested in one thing – their own betterment of their life. And if you can offer that, they will believe anything and obviously if what you are showing can be proven and they can demonstrate such things - which was possible with reading – then you obviously have an absolute winner. And then money and how much people has to pay for it becomes irrelevant.
That is how we then approached the point and the underlying fact of why I was doing it, nobody was really interested in. They were not interested in the fact that I am interested in changing the world, making it a better place for all – nobody was interested in that. People were interested in their own betterment which was financial in nature. And if what they are doing was also a feel good thing, I’m doing this to make the world a better place, that’s cool, but they would not stand by that ultimately, which was proven through time - they would only stand by money. And, if possible they will stab you in the back and try and do their own way of making even more money.
Granted I made mistakes in the whole approach in placing not enough emphasis on the nature of man once confronted with money. And therefore I ended up trusting where I shouldn’t have. I should have stuck to the principles of what is best for all and kept that responsibility my own. But I started sharing that responsibility, bringing in other people to also consider and walk in places of responsibility to bring about eventually a world that is a better place for all, but when it came to the point of actually walking it, that didn’t materialize and everything went up in smoke as if overnight it dissipated and disappeared.
