Wednesday 17 September 2014

Day 554: The Power of Forgiveness

Before I got to the point of testing the education so extensively I first went through the process of divorce. After I did my divorce I discovered an interesting thing - I looked at my own actions within the context of my relationship within my marriage, and realized that if I entertain the thoughts that were in my mind I become an unpredictable person that tend to be the result of energetic feelings. And many of them being feelings that are misunderstood in rage of not being supported in all kinds of experiences and yet I am the one that made most of the mistakes. So I proposed that, to my ex wife, that we sit down and forgive each other and we made a day to do that and to be honest with each other so for the sake of the children we can move on. And one evening we got together and face to face we started the process of self-forgiveness and asking for forgiveness and speaking the forgiveness out aloud with the undertaking and the understanding that we would push ourselves to forgive and not hold that which we were going to hear for the first time against the other, we are here to clean the slate.

Now obviously at this stage, and this is quite important, Phillip Niemand was already dead although my father was still alive. These two factors are quite important at this stage. We then did the forgiveness and it went very emotional and explosive because things were shared that was not shared before and we did the forgiveness and the experience of release was immense - doing this forgiveness aloud. And as the evening progressed - it went on for many many hours of forgiveness - at some stage suddenly something happened that we knew was possible but which didn’t happen yet which was that the gift of Phillip Niemand which was deep trance medium ship, was transferred to my ex wife, and the next moment Phillip Niemand was in the body and he was extremely pissed off with me. He said to me I must save her and I must tell her what I know, and that I know the answer. And I looked at him and said, “I don’t know what you’re talking about. I mean here I am I am busy doing the forgiveness, I am doing my best. But nobody seemed to want to hear what I have to say. ” He was extremely upset, and eventually even I got upset with him because he was so insisting that apparently I know the answer to what was going on in the universe, and I must save her from what she’s buy doing, which was obviously wanting to have a happy life on earth which was her endeavour. And therefore she wanted to take me out of her life because I am a high risk factor. And I should save her from herself and help her and I didn’t know exactly what he meant and it took many years for me to find out. In fact many many years to find out what it was that Phillip Niemand was really saying to me at that stage, because why could I not understand his message was because I was very certain there were no demonic forces. I mean here I was again doing forgiveness; I have not met a single point that was demonic except human beings that became demonic through their emotional conditions due to environmental issues. So people will get angry or get full of rage because of things that happen in their world, because of jealousy, because of fear. But those actions would be demonic and evil and therefore evil to me only existed in the minds of men and not anywhere else. And so, heaven was a place to aspire for – that was my absolute commitment.

At this stage, after the evening of forgiveness, me and my ex wife decided to give the relationship another try, and a process started that I did not expect. In the evenings suddenly a being would take over my ex wife’s body and start speaking to me in a way that, which I obviously understood due to its very nature as a message from God and it was stated as such, that due to the forgiveness we did and my embracing of forgiveness God had a gift for me – and that was the words that was used. And a process started which was presenting these gifts and that these gifts were presented by people on instruction from God, from the heavens, and these beings were in the heavens. And that if you hear the nature of these gifts, it was astounding and it was very clear that forgiveness was proven to me to be one of the ultimate keys, and God recognized it and was speaking not directly to me, but was sending messengers with messages to me which shows that I have in fact in a small way proven the effectiveness and power of forgiveness. Now, each one of these gifts required me to actually apply the gift and test it out and become it, embrace it, become the living words of it so to speak.

Friday 5 September 2014

Day 553: Entering the Education Field

Continuing from Day 552: Is God to Blame for War?

At this stage I entered the education field, specifically initially with mathematics because that was what was available. I was satisfied that mathematics could be taught in a way that could make the human being a better person. Because in applying mathematics they could make decisions in a more calculated way and that from my experience, the human being in essence is good if their environment supports such goodness. There was goodwill in men, and that they only become evil when their environment impulse them to be evil and they are in a survival mode so to speak. Obviously many of these points would be challenged in the years to come, as I watch mankind spiralling into in itself a demonic force that simply wouldn’t give each other a chance unless you adhere to the rules - which I have already learned through my own direct experience - was in fact harmful and deliberate, deceptive and destructive which is the principles of capitalism. Yes, don’t react to that because I will explain in time why.

This was something that was already quite clear at that stage although I did understand that without the money, without a way to generate the income – one will not bring about a better world, and I endeavoured to find ways to empower people especially within the realms of money because then they can explore the potential of their own goodwill. That seemed to be challenged though in time.

But at this stage still very clearly to me God was good and great. I didn’t as such at that stage speak to angels, I was more interested to hear the stories from the people that would talk through the deep trance medium. Quite interesting, there was quite a number of people that would come and try and leave messages to their loved ones on earth. The primary message was that they were alive and that or they would want to be forgiven or that things was different to what it was taught, but nothing was clearly placed, there was always like an interference. There was a gate keeper, a door keeper with the trance that would only allow certain messages and that would be placed to me as being the will of God, that is what God allows – and I never questioned that. I mean, I have accepted God as the ultimate force and as the fathering force, as the origin, as the creator completely at that stage. And we will explore God in my next book which is ‘Meeting God’ where I will explain the experience of that.

Now during this time in working with education, I explored eventually the way or ways to educate or teach reading skills in a way that it becomes available to everyone in the world, because that through my own experience was proven to me to be one of the most important things/skills/abilities a human being should have. But there was no movement in the education system towards developing these skills in any effective way, and in spite of many endeavours and discussions even up to governmental task force level and proving in front of them, the group/assessors, that one can take a seemingly ‘disabled child’, one that has got learning disabilities, and within a short period of time prove to the child that they don’t in fact have the disability, that it is purely a social condition. In spite of all of that, the decision that was made in terms of reading skills in the education was not based on what’s best for the children. It was based on money and who was making money out of the point, and therefore the product we presented was simply sidelined and because we didn’t come up with any way of benefitting the governmental people, that means buying them off, we just simply were not part of the solution.

When it became clear that that would be the way we’ll have to go and I refused to go that way and then approached it differently in terms of really starting to push the point of making it available at home and in school in as many ways as possible, and in the same time developing a force that will be presenting it regularly, realizing one thing, that if your sales force make enough money they will be dedicated to the product. People are not at that stage, I found, were not able to or willing to dedicate their life to just a cause, they are interested in one thing – their own betterment of their life. And if you can offer that, they will believe anything and obviously if what you are showing can be proven and they can demonstrate such things - which was possible with reading – then you obviously have an absolute winner. And then money and how much people has to pay for it becomes irrelevant.

That is how we then approached the point and the underlying fact of why I was doing it, nobody was really interested in. They were not interested in the fact that I am interested in changing the world, making it a better place for all – nobody was interested in that. People were interested in their own betterment which was financial in nature. And if what they are doing was also a feel good thing, I’m doing this to make the world a better place, that’s cool, but they would not stand by that ultimately, which was proven through time - they would only stand by money. And, if possible they will stab you in the back and try and do their own way of making even more money.

Granted I made mistakes in the whole approach in placing not enough emphasis on the nature of man once confronted with money. And therefore I ended up trusting where I shouldn’t have. I should have stuck to the principles of what is best for all and kept that responsibility my own. But I started sharing that responsibility, bringing in other people to also consider and walk in places of responsibility to bring about eventually a world that is a better place for all, but when it came to the point of actually walking it, that didn’t materialize and everything went up in smoke as if overnight it dissipated and disappeared.