Day 549: Demons Taught me the Secrets of Jesus - Introduction

*The following series of blogs contains previously unpublished material by Bernard Poolman from 2011*

This is a seemingly strange topic.

But, astoundingly enough, a story about ‘beating the odds, against all odds’.
You’re in a world where there are always odds: the odd thing out, the odds of winning or losing, the odds of life and death; and everything is always on the line. And when the odds turn, things do not always turn out the way you want them - and sometimes they turn out the way you would love it to be.

So, how could Demons teach me the Secrets of Jesus?

After all, the drive of Jesus has been told many times. I grew up with the story of Jesus. And although there are many things in this story that one might not seemingly find easy, some of them were difficult. Like carrying the cross and being crucified. Fearful hearts immediately turn away from such a challenge and rather say, “I don’t need to carry the cross, Jesus carried it for me”.

Coming from a family where the father figure was so intensely embracing the Teachings of Jesus, that by his death, the pastor on the pulpit was saying that ‘if you were not like Les Poolman, you will not get into Heaven.’

That was quite a statement, like passing judgment on a total community.

It caused much subconscious repercussions in the community where people that were friends before and working together, all ended up causing each other harm - never speaking again.

Just with the death of one man, which was living as closely as possible to the Teachings of Jesus.

Only at his gravesite did we learn about many of the things he did where he gave so, that the left hand didn’t know what the right hand was doing. He pushed the points to the ultimate. And yet he couldn’t beat, at a young age, in spite of his dedication, he couldn’t beat cancer in his prayers. It didn’t save his life. So he died early fifties, still with the Bible in his hands, professing the message.

What does that got to do with anything? Yet it was the example, which was a tough one to follow, which was focussed around the Life and Teachings of Jesus.

The next influence that came into my life around this, and that had a profound impact was from my father-in-law, Phillip Niemand. He was the extreme ‘other side’ of the ‘coin’ as being a deep-trance medium. Yet, stating absolutely, that one cannot trust anything that comes from Heaven. Although there are beings that speak through him, “you can’t trust a word they’re saying, it is all a lie” and he would prefer to die because “this world is purely a place of suffering and purely the result of lies and deception”.

So, difficult to marry the two extremes from a certain perspective. Phillip Niemand had different experiences that shaped his life, and part of that, maybe the biggest foundation that brought him to such an understanding of the Heavens were in the Second World War. Where he participated with the partisans, on the side of the Elite forces. He was used for his skill, let’s call it that, or ‘psychic abilities’ . [Yes they used people like that, it is part of the Armed Forces, so to speak. You are not going to get any of the information released by those in the know. It’s not to their advantage. Their advantage is to keep their secrets close to their heart. ]
As part of Military Intelligence, Phillip Niemand played his role.

That is the influences that shaped my endeavours and my search for an understanding of ‘Why the Odds are always against You, in Every Possible Way’. It’s as if you’re in a giant casino and every thought is measured and spinned around, to bring about the opposite effect. The effect that is the greatest odds against you; that the only thing you have that you can play with in this giant casino of life, is your Willpower.

And yet, in your Willpower and you applying it, you will lose everything: your friends, your family – everything will have to be given up because they will simply not be able to understand the game you play, because they’re not playing the game. Unless they play the game, and even then, you’re going to end up dying alone. Because there’s an interesting thing, everything that happens in your life, isn’t happening to you, it’s happening inside you. It happens inside your Mind, and that’s where everybody is trying to come to peace, and trying to come to a way of Life that is the ‘Inner Self’. So called ‘directed’ and ‘at peace’ and ‘in harmony’.

But that didn’t seem to be the answer, because I met many people that are seemingly at peace with themselves, at harmony with themselves – yet that was only so when they were in front of other people. When you get to know them closer, you go and stay with them, you spend some time with them you find out it’s not like that at all. That is why at the Desteni Farm we had people come from all over the world to come and stay with us for as long as up to 3 years, to see for themselves, a very difficult message we have to deliver. Where it comes from, how it works, what is real. And those that manage to stay, those that manage to hear and see, their lives were profoundly changed forever more. In fact, changed without anything that specifically can be pinpointed, so they can’t even write or speak about it and say what happened. They were just in a different environment and just being in a different environment changed them profoundly.

So, looking at all of these seemingly, unrelated points, we are here on a journey of Understanding, Hearing, Sharing...

The Secrets of the Demons….

To be continued

Day 14: Do you Love Breakups?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in spite of the repeated evidence in my own living experience where love failed to sustain a relationship and prevent it from breaking up, I still place value in love as the bond and reason to engage in relationships without considering the practical factors like: communication, past life clearing, vocabulary alignment, psychological patterning clearing, honesty, intimacy, goal alignment, secret mind eradication, investigation of the allowances and acceptances of irrational fear and the necessity of skill training to prepare myself for effective agreements to hold the relationship together as a giving of myself in total commitment to successful living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept breakups to be the natural  condition of human relationships instead of acquiring relationship agreement skills to manage the relationships as equals and to support the integrity of the commitment to each other as the expression of self respect and respect of each other as living beings to prevent the fear of being hurt and the fear of vulnerability that is the key to complete trust and intimacy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept love as an untouchable feeling that will somehow obliterate the physical evidence that love do not conquer all, and that I allowed myself to become irrationally possessed with love to such a degree that I became blind to the physical signs that predictably show the signs of breakup and failure already in many cases BEFORE the relationship turned into a committed agreement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept love to be holy when it clearly shows love is used as manipulation with or without intent to get feelings fulfilled and to counter the fears of loneliness while these fears only go to the greater fear of breakup later that compromise all rational relationship stability considerations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that thought plays the major creative role in the creation of love through energizing and justifying feelings through a process of listing acceptable and unacceptable points that I can live with, instead of standing on the principle that will create a certain successful relationship agreement through following the common sense of openness, self-honesty, integrity, and communication. All the points I know is critical for a stable commitment, yet I compromise through justification because I fear I may not get into the relationship unless I compromise. Yet, the reality of the breakup is born out of the compromise before the relationship starts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the use of love in movies and advertising to influence me as to how I project that love should be while I deny that the picture perfect presentation is not based in the reality of daily living – yet, I allow myself to compromise my integrity and that of my partner and foolishly follow the road of breakup using justification and compromise to make my decision sound right in the thoughts I entertain as I create the illusion of my choice by colouring it in with all the reasons why, while denying all the reasons why not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place all my trust in Love instead of the common sense of living in ways that is practically best for all life and thus best to be the foundation of all relationships in all ways.

I commit myself to create love as the living result of communication, past life clearing, vocabulary alignment, psychological patterning clearing, self honesty, intimacy, goal alignment, investigation of and release of irrational fears and the training of myself in the skills of effective agreement design that all my relationships maybe always be best on what is best for life because of the relationship that was agreed to be formed.

I commit myself to reform the foundation of relationships to be lived by me and passed on to my children that is based in the common sense practical living in space and time that will always result in what is both best for the relationship and best for all life as life as a group is based on relationships and the consequential outflows of the agreements within relationships and I stand for that which is mathematically predictably best for all life.

I commit myself to reform the foundation of love to be the result of effective common sense living in a practical measurable way where all cards are always on the table and no thoughts exist that are hidden that could lead to justification and judgments that will end up in break-ups purely because the self interest of feeling was measured to be worth more that the integrity and respect of self honest living.

I commit myself to hold only life as worthy and holy and to reform all relationships on earth to that which respect and protect life in all ways necessary.

I commit myself to reform the understanding of the place and use of the mind and thinking to its rightful place as a tool with which to design living patterns of flesh as self that is best for all life and not allow myself the compromise to regard the mind as more than life and as a tool that has rights that overshadow life.

I commit myself to make sure that movies and advertising is no longer used in ways to design the human into a robotic consumer that must live a life of compromise and desire just to feed the greed and fear of those unwilling to respect and honour life as equal.

I commit myself to put all trust in right relationships where I will play the part of one pole to make sure that no uneven polarity is created through which life will be imprisoned to the illusions of energetic consciousness to make sure that life as the physical is respected and supported as it was intended as the dominion that was given.