Day 79: Stepping out of Character with LOVED ONES

This post is Part 2 of the Stepping out of Character series – read Day 78: Stepping out of Character for further context and support

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I keep my Loved Ones in Character if I do not Step Out of Character – that I am scared to Step Out of Character as that would mean I will Lose my Loved Ones that Validate my character – yet, I want to Change – not realizing that change in character without changing ALL Relationships of a character, will NOT change your character, and all I will do is to Mutate my character to Make Sure I feel I change in my Inner-Character, while my Outer Character as the World does not change, so I Make Sure I DO NOT change and Remain in the Character I LOVE TO BE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that characters Exist as the Relationships I BUILD on those that LOVE MY character, and that IN THIS, Parents are the Primary KEEPERS of Character that MAKE SURE children Remain In Character so that the Illusion Created by Each can be Stable and SEEM Real as the Experience is MADE Real by the character, but the Reality is that EVERYTHING AN ILLUSION  creates WILL BE an ILLUSION as a REAL ILLUSION, so it will Feel Real to the ILLUSIONARY Character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that those with a WEAK Character will NOT be Able to step out of Character with LOVED ONES as they WOULD Fear to Lose the Support of the LOVED Ones and in Fact be TRAPPING LOVED Ones IN Character, proving that the Love for the Loved Ones is NOT what is Best, Best is Only FEAR HIDDEN Behind LOVE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that LOVE in Character is Only a WAY to Control the Character Environment to Make Sure Character Support Remains Stable so that No Character gets challenged to Make Sure the System of Characters on Earth Pretending to Live, can Remain Stable to Give the ILLUSION of Reality as Character to be Real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the Initial Creation of a Character is the Job of the Parent that Makes Sure the Child FITS into the System of Character Environment, so that the Character of the child will be Accepted as a Character of the System, where the Agreement Between all Characters is to NOT challenge each other’s character, but to Remain in Character so that the System of Characters Remains Stable, and seems Real, Pretending to NOT KNOW Where the Characters come from or How the Characters are Created – all together acting DUMB to Have a Valid excuse as to the Real Nature of the Illusion of Characterization.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Loved Ones are the Audience of the Character that will say you play your character well even if you are not, so the Love of Loved Ones is Claimed to be Unconditional, Making the Breaking Free from the Illusion Even More Unlikely, Because My Character gets the Attention and Love that I feel validates my character and my Life as Character Creation Real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when Loved Ones Die, they are Stepping OUT of Character so that I can change my character to Look for New Loved Ones that will Love my New Character – proving it is possible to change Character through changing One’s Participation in the Character Love Cycle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that When a Relationship or Marriage Breaks up, the Previous Love Characters will Change their Character to Look for a New Audience as Loved Ones Mutating the Character TILL they find a Loved One again, showing that to Break up the LOVE Relationship DOES force Characters to Step out of Character and if Directed to show that Creating New Character will Only Result in the Exact Same Cycle, the Opportunity Exists to Step out of Character FOR REAL, to Sort out the Mess Created ON Earth to Get Back to Actual Life.

I commit myself to show that the Hidden Agreement between Characters to Perpetuate the Lie of the Illusion is “I’ll Support your Character if you Support my Character – therefore, we are Friends. And if you Don’t Support my Character we’ll be Enemies for Life, because you’re taking the Life from my Character by not Supporting it. I’ll rather Kill your Character First, before you Kill my Character.” It is the Survival of the Fittest Character for this Game of Life.

I commit myself to show that every Character is a Slave to every Character which Exists as a Relationship defining a Character.

I commit myself to show every Character is a Slave to those who Love them and will not Step out of Character, out of Fear of Losing the Ones that Love them.

I commit myself to show that Death Proves that Characters trapped in Relationships can be Set Free to, at the very least, change into Another Character.

I commit myself to show that Breakups prove that Characters can Change, showing that it is Possible to Step out of Character to Find out what Exists Before the Creation of Characters.

I commit myself to show that Parents should be called Character Builders, because that is what they Really Do.

I commit myself to show that when you Step out of Character with you Parents, they will do Everything possible to get you Back into Character because they will feel they Failed at building your character in a way so that you will Never Change and remain as Only their Creation, justifying their own Character as the Creator of You. 

Day 14: Do you Love Breakups?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in spite of the repeated evidence in my own living experience where love failed to sustain a relationship and prevent it from breaking up, I still place value in love as the bond and reason to engage in relationships without considering the practical factors like: communication, past life clearing, vocabulary alignment, psychological patterning clearing, honesty, intimacy, goal alignment, secret mind eradication, investigation of the allowances and acceptances of irrational fear and the necessity of skill training to prepare myself for effective agreements to hold the relationship together as a giving of myself in total commitment to successful living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept breakups to be the natural  condition of human relationships instead of acquiring relationship agreement skills to manage the relationships as equals and to support the integrity of the commitment to each other as the expression of self respect and respect of each other as living beings to prevent the fear of being hurt and the fear of vulnerability that is the key to complete trust and intimacy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept love as an untouchable feeling that will somehow obliterate the physical evidence that love do not conquer all, and that I allowed myself to become irrationally possessed with love to such a degree that I became blind to the physical signs that predictably show the signs of breakup and failure already in many cases BEFORE the relationship turned into a committed agreement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept love to be holy when it clearly shows love is used as manipulation with or without intent to get feelings fulfilled and to counter the fears of loneliness while these fears only go to the greater fear of breakup later that compromise all rational relationship stability considerations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that thought plays the major creative role in the creation of love through energizing and justifying feelings through a process of listing acceptable and unacceptable points that I can live with, instead of standing on the principle that will create a certain successful relationship agreement through following the common sense of openness, self-honesty, integrity, and communication. All the points I know is critical for a stable commitment, yet I compromise through justification because I fear I may not get into the relationship unless I compromise. Yet, the reality of the breakup is born out of the compromise before the relationship starts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the use of love in movies and advertising to influence me as to how I project that love should be while I deny that the picture perfect presentation is not based in the reality of daily living – yet, I allow myself to compromise my integrity and that of my partner and foolishly follow the road of breakup using justification and compromise to make my decision sound right in the thoughts I entertain as I create the illusion of my choice by colouring it in with all the reasons why, while denying all the reasons why not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place all my trust in Love instead of the common sense of living in ways that is practically best for all life and thus best to be the foundation of all relationships in all ways.

I commit myself to create love as the living result of communication, past life clearing, vocabulary alignment, psychological patterning clearing, self honesty, intimacy, goal alignment, investigation of and release of irrational fears and the training of myself in the skills of effective agreement design that all my relationships maybe always be best on what is best for life because of the relationship that was agreed to be formed.

I commit myself to reform the foundation of relationships to be lived by me and passed on to my children that is based in the common sense practical living in space and time that will always result in what is both best for the relationship and best for all life as life as a group is based on relationships and the consequential outflows of the agreements within relationships and I stand for that which is mathematically predictably best for all life.

I commit myself to reform the foundation of love to be the result of effective common sense living in a practical measurable way where all cards are always on the table and no thoughts exist that are hidden that could lead to justification and judgments that will end up in break-ups purely because the self interest of feeling was measured to be worth more that the integrity and respect of self honest living.

I commit myself to hold only life as worthy and holy and to reform all relationships on earth to that which respect and protect life in all ways necessary.

I commit myself to reform the understanding of the place and use of the mind and thinking to its rightful place as a tool with which to design living patterns of flesh as self that is best for all life and not allow myself the compromise to regard the mind as more than life and as a tool that has rights that overshadow life.

I commit myself to make sure that movies and advertising is no longer used in ways to design the human into a robotic consumer that must live a life of compromise and desire just to feed the greed and fear of those unwilling to respect and honour life as equal.

I commit myself to put all trust in right relationships where I will play the part of one pole to make sure that no uneven polarity is created through which life will be imprisoned to the illusions of energetic consciousness to make sure that life as the physical is respected and supported as it was intended as the dominion that was given.