Day 573: Practical Living Explained

Practically Creating The World as Acceptable to ALL

This is the tested living model where each one will be able to participate as equal and one and experience their participation in bringing forth a new world.

How I apply practical forgiveness in every moment, is in my application of inner awareness in the moment before I act in outer awareness-- so in my world I am known as the destroyer-- because--once I am certain I am honest with me and what I am aware of my accepted expression and I have corrected me in my self expression, I will reveal the point in the other that requires correction to the point where their world will destruct-- normally they are angry --but inevitably they return in forgiveness and understanding --this is how we enlighten the world through revelation of inner awareness as the outer expression of what we are aware of in every moment.

Have a look at how we have created our world - the outer me reflecting the inner me (from which we have hidden, which we have denied through shame of what we have accepted and allowed to manifest in this world as us and thus the reason why we have not actually stood up and have taken responsibility for ourselves: Shame of all that we are actually responsible for, which is the inner me that manifests the outer me as this world within which we experience ourselves) - thus in applying forgiveness in every moment, before acting or speaking, making sure I stand as self awareness as me and correct what is necessary within (which is that which had been the cause through acceptance and allowance by me to manifest what exist within me and my world that is not of who I really am) - our expression both within and as me and without and as the world will change - because it is me and I am responsible for me, both within and without! Only when honesty with me is proven as me, that I am honest with me in every moment as self expression of inner awareness: Am I able to directly 'point out' that which exist within others which is not of who they are within and without - I then have the ability to see this within others as me, because I am aware of them as me, I see directly because I see directly as me through self awareness as me as who I am. I live who I am through and as honesty and inner awareness/self awareness and thus I know who others are as me and I will not accept and allow anything less than who they are as me. Because I know how and what their current image and likeness is accepting and allowing within themselves and this world, which is not who they are and thus the world will reflect that which is not who they are - I am responsible for them as me, in every moment I see that I or those around me are accepting and allowing within, reflected in this world, that which is not of who we are. Thus--I take responsibility for the moments in my world I participate in without compromise or justification or making it better than what it really is. I thus trust only my honesty with myself as self corrected and make sure I am self corrected through the actual forgiveness and correction--If I did not do the forgiveness, I will fall - If I did do the forgiveness I will understand that the being did not change immediately, but went through a process of realization as self that in a way excluded me, yet is me as the being is me. My input thus is the catalyst and the Structural Resonance as I am Presence will direct to the point of AHA--I see what I do--This cycle take from days to 2 years per event--so be patient--yet assertive and firm in your standing--Trusting self forgiveness and corrective application in your own world experience--inner to reflect outer. You will not immediately experience a change in your world through forgiveness--only a relieve--a moment of peace -- then more conflict as you start to face yourself.

Many will react in many ways as I stand and not accept and allow anything less than who they are as me - through fear of facing self through self honesty because this will mean that the shame of self will have to be faced of that which have been accepted and allowed within and as self to manifest in this world as self and that we've never actually stood up within and as self awareness and self honesty in every moment and take responsibility for that which we have accepted and allowed within self and this world as self but instead cowered away in shame: This is but the process to realising honesty with self, which is self honesty through self awareness: Self aware of self, self honesty with self, self responsibility with self - the one and only relationship/agreement that exist within existence as me.

This world as it exist, us how we exist - the inner expression and outer expression have been created through many moments for eons of time. Thus self awareness is required in every moment to no longer continue with the moments of expression we have accepted and allowed that is not of who we are, with forgiveness we correct such moments within ourselves, with self honesty we correct such moments within ourselves, before we express - then we express through and as self awareness.

So= Strange--Forgiveness in full circle

So Step by Step

1. I see life as a moment-- a moment is not time , but the point that change my experience in a moment to the point that the moment change again-- Between this beginning and end of the moment-- I look at my inner reactions and movements-- I may have only one breath like in a conversation or many when I am more observer--

A moment not equated to time. I'd describe a moment as follows: Sitting alone within the living room and someone walks in, would be the beginning of the moment. The end of this particular moment would be when either one of you stands up and walks out. Within and during the moment the application of breathing becomes the expression of you as follows: The in breath and out breath and the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath. Within the in breath I observe my inner awareness, during the moment in between the in breath and out breath exist an infinite moment, and within the out breath I express my inner awareness as outer expression: This moment, from the in breath, to the infinite moment in between, to the out breath - occurs with every breath from the beginning to the end of the entire moment as my inner awareness is expressed as me within my outer expression as one. The beginning and the end as one moment with the in breath, the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath and then the out breath. And so you continue throughout the moment into the next moment, the next moment when you're alone once again within the living room is the following moment after the moment you experienced with the being in the living room with you.

The breath application within and as the moment work as follows: Four (4) counts in breath, four (4) counts infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath and then four (4) counts out breath...and so you continue.

2. In the in breath I observe me inner self-- honest to the utmost-- I found that if I am not honest--I will be ashamed Later-- In the moment before the in breath and the out breath-- "Time" stand still and in that infinite moment (I practiced this infinite moment in-between breath by challenging myself to see the essence of the common sense that is best for all in the moment. That means: I look at the practical way each participant in the moment's life will continue if I don't interfere and whether I would be grateful at the end of time that someone had the courage to challenge my ego and belief systems when I was lost. And then I express myself as the challenge and interference in the beings life, taking responsibility upon myself to direct the moment to the benefit of the greatest self expression inevitably.) -- the outcomes of my participation is measured to obtain maximum impact no matter what--obviously only as words-- this same application was applied in the directive principles that changed the dimensions in one moment--This is the point f access that cannot be thought out or come from knowledge and access will only come through much effective honest self reflection and proven application within the infinite moment in between breaths--no more access will be gained than what is proven to be understood as life in the infinite moment with full awareness and understanding. Thus , here no-one give access and it cannot be forced or prayed or meditated upon--it is gained through proven effective self expression and participation in the current allowed reality focusing on stopping what is here to allow that which is life within to step forth to be directed by self as proof as Creator, Created and Creation and the responsibility that goes with this--This is the dominion of Man and why Earth is the “secret” of existence and why all creative Will is directed from earth in existence and why all creation became trapped around earth due to the abuse of self expression. This had to happen to understand oneness and equality and bring forth a model where all will walk as one--either on earth or after death--so--no-one will hold any captive with fear or with knowledge - death is the equalizer where self refuse to go in self forgiveness and correction for all as one.

So from the in breath I observe me, inner self, and in the moment before the in breath and out breath within the infinite moment I observe all participants as me included. And within the observation I see direct where it is necessary to act or speak to direct those as me to self realisation/ self honesty in revealing points that is not of who they are, and within the out breath I express me, inner self, inner awareness of all that surrounds me and I act and speak appropriately where necessary: The expression of me not accepting or allowing anything less that who the participants are as me.

Observe: In the breath alone, you are trapped in consciousness, as the breath alone you are trapped in consciousness. It is in the moment in between the in breath and the out breath that you are free, it is in the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath that you are free. That freedom expands and expounds as we become more specific in our understanding to let go of what we have allowed to be the Illusion we call creation--yet as a training model--the illusion is great and effective -- So--doesn't help to fight or scream or manipulate--this is done --This is the last life for each on earth as consciousness--sadly for those refusing to apply forgiveness--all that will happen is that you will be last to realize your responsibility to yourself as all as one as equal--so--we will be equal to our application

3. Obviously if I found a movement or emotion or feeling of reaction like anger in me because of the other beings participation-- I apply forgiveness and do the correction in myself into infinity in the infinite moment between the in breath and the out breath

Self first: This is important. It is first to correct self awareness, inner awareness of self through applying necessary self forgiveness before directly speaking or assisting those that participate in a particular moment in effectively and appropriately directing them as you by not accepting and allowing anything less that who they are as you.

It starts with self: In moments of not accepting and allowing anything less than who I am through breathing application and expression, making sure I stand clear within self honesty and self awareness and self responsibility through breathing application and expression, I won't accept or allow anything less from who those are around me as me.

Honesty with self first, self responsibility first, before honesty with self within others as self is 'pointed out' and revealed in realising self responsibility towards others who are participating in a particular moment. I always assist the being I am opening to self revelation by doing forgiveness allowed with them--very effective with children--example--say to the person or child--repeat after me allowed--I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see that the inner conflict in me is the inner conflict in all other beings on earth as well. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to belief that my conflicts are unique and that I am alone. I understand that I am alone in my inner honesty, because I must prove me to life to be birthed as life from systems--etc--this requires practice and to ask questions will assist.

I imagine the fear--we all have to give up consciousness and what we believed was important--so we all will understand our fears and the fears of others--thus--important to not use the fear of your own giving up by saying it cannot work, because others will not believe--then you trap yourself-- Focus on self first and test this out--or you may stand after death having to face the truth about your essence of fear not yet transcended--not a recommended option and there is no judgment on what method you apply--now or after death--either way you only face yourself and in that you and each are alone

Self first - First making absolutely sure within the in breath, the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath and the out breath that I am absolutely completely clear from all that I am not within a particular moment. Inner awareness, self honesty and self responsibility must stand as me as who I am to be able to 'point out' and reveal within those that participate within a particular moment that which they are not. Thus I must make sure I stand absolutely clear within me as me of all that I am not, not accepting anything less than who I am, to be able to do the same within those that participate within a particular moment.

4. Obviously-- I have through practicing this multiple times focused on my correction with forgiveness-- established a level of trust in my corrective action and thus trust that I act as all as one as equal in the moment--In other words--because of my own honesty with self in understanding self correction and oneness in expression and equality in responsibility-- I trust me to do what is necessary to assist in revelation and practical example-- I cannot save another or fix another--I can only reveal self-deception and only once I have proved that I have corrected self-deception in me. This is proved through dimensional access--no honesty--no direct access--no proof that all as one is who you are--no access--just mind jobs and pictures--just snippets of uncertainty--yet where honesty has been infinitely proven--full access--hearing and seeing just like you and me in 3d--conversations -like dimensions and earth is one will become your reality experience--this is the guide for each on earth--all will see dimensions and communicate dimensions equally - as we do in 3d--the key--self correction and self realization and with effective application--quite possible for anyone any where

Here remember--access is according to the extend of self expression--no- one gain more than what is taken responsibility for as all as one--so no-one can actually harm another--only systems harm systems and death is only the death of systems.

5. Correction of self deception means to find a solution onto infinity in every moment-- That seems odd, but look-- The I am only exist in the moment and not in the mind or thinking-- so The I am of me will show me what to do in the moment if I have proved my honesty to me and proved that I will act in the interest of ultimate oneness and equality -- NO MATTER WHAT

6. This means that the answer cannot be planned or prepared--I must be prepared thus aware and in that awareness -- self-directed-- thus I must trust me that I will not abuse my awareness to get my way or my will, but will do the GREATER will-- This is where power is--if one can call this power-- Power is greatly misunderstood

Within the expression of self through the out breath - the outer expression of self is unpredictable - self expression is unpredictable as it's not equated to memory, as it's not equated to thought, emotions and feelings as a reactive behaviour. Outer self expression as one with inner awareness as self - is unpredictable and it is within and as unpredictability where self trust exist. Yet this unpredictable self expression is where the words spoken together with actions necessary to be taken in the moment is one - and is done within and as equality and oneness for what is best for all as one as equal. Thus, in unpredictable self expression, trust exist from the principle that I will speak and do in this moment what is best for all as one as equal - as each human being represents existence as all as one as equal.

7. Now in the in breath I assessed myself and what I became aware of-- in the point in-between I tested me into infinity--In the out breath I participate in trust and let the words flow-- no thinking-- this is then the I am that speaks--we are all this I am , but this I am never speaks-- the mind speaks-- this is the calamity of Man.

It is here within and as unpredictable self expression, as the outer expression of inner awareness as self with the out breath - that the I am speaks and expresses as all as one as equal - appropriately, what is best for all as one as equal. Here the I am speak in sound as sound and your words become infinite expansive sound where you see all the various ways your words will flow through existence--this is truly amazing--but impossible for systems or the mind to experience

How do we know it is the I am speaking--the mind is silence--as long as the mind thinks or pictures of something greater exist--the I am will not speak--see the 10 Commitments in Baird Spaldings books - a few adjustments necessary--but the Amalgamation expressed there happens only through honesty and self forgiveness as an inner process that each must do individually and that no-one will be able to do for another--those that wait for another -will experience the fate of the one they wait for--to show that -our example of discipline with self honesty and self forgiveness no matter what the challenge--will manifest--this is certain

See how humanity is being forced to speak out with world events having little or no effect-- because they have not yet done this process of self-awareness at an inner level of practicality-- thus-- great calamity must now manifest--not necessary if we get our asses in gear with revelation in the moment and forgiveness and self correction

The process of self revelation as movement of self, instead of the culminating of effects within the world which we caused through no self awareness, no self responsibility and no self honesty - reaching calamity which will only then cause self revelation and self movement for us.

I have been living like this for years, but to place it in practical words took a while.

Look in this model of practical living -- no God is required, no Master is required , no ascension to send your ass to some better place--the best place is self, here- as Self Mastery. No religion is required but honesty with self. No wisdom is required but awareness in the moment. No honey words is required because you are the bee that collect the pollen in awareness in the moment as the moment flower - knowing that honey will be produced from it. This is the food of life.

Practical breathing thus is--constand--practise

4 counts in 4 counts infinite 4 counts out - repeat

No-one will come to prove you but yourself--this is certain and only self will proof self to self--this is equality and oneness in practical expression

enjoy

Day 561: The Ultimate Challenge of All Religion

Continuing from Day 560: Earthing Self

So that by the time I got to the first major attack on myself and my family by Demons, it was after the whole graffiti thing on the wall where they were writing on the walls that they will ‘Kill you and your son’. We had already at that stage established an effective way to deal with it from the perspective of seeing and working with it, so my children could already see it, Cerise specifically. And she was ready, had no fear of any of these Manifestations and were able to speak to all things, whatever form it is. So very effectively she could deal with it. And therefore with her assistance, in the beginning, in terms of bringing them together when we were attacked by over 300 Demons, some of the big boys of the Universe came to the house because I was busy making an impact on the ‘Legions of Demons’, in assisting them. And they would not stand for it.
So they came to me and my house to try and scare me away. There wasn’t really much they could do, they needed my fear, my participation in fear and ignorance to be able to actually control or have a response that they can actually work with to be able to get anywhere.

I instructed Cerise what to do, bring the demons together. She knew how to work with it already. She’d bring the demons and we will put them through my heart, that means I’m in a state, in a calm state of processing, earthing all the energy that the Demon has been utilising and creating its Demon Self. I was busy earthing that back to the Earth and in that way when you earth that energy, the being is released from the control of the energy and also is assisted in realising how they have created their energetic state that made them de-manned – less than a man – making them an energetic being, which is a lesser being where they lose contact with the Physical Universe, which is the actual creative force. They are taken through the point of Realisation and then they are assisted to go to an appropriate space from which they will be guided further, which we will discuss in for instance the books that was presented or transcribed by Hitler through the Portal, explaining how this worked.
Obviously, Hitler being the ultimate Demon, according to Man – and in fact he was the ultimate Demon in the Hereafter, in the Demon Dimension. So question being – would Hitler be able to be Forgiven or Self-Forgiven? Can Hitler be Forgiven? The ultimate challenge of all Religion and all Beliefs and all Faiths.


Is the Forgiveness of God real?


What is Forgiveness really?

So, Cerise then brought these Demons here, most of them went quite quickly the last six-seven of them where rather ‘tough’ ones, they’d been Demons for a very long time. But they all then realised themselves and the whole story after that changed. They never made another attempt like that on me and my family because, they had no way to deal with what it was, they didn’t understand what was happening, but something was happening to their comrades when they try and harm me and my family. We’ll continue this.

Day 558: Meditation, Understanding and Self-Realisation

So we continue with What the Demons Taught me About the Message of Jesus, Secrets of Jesus.
Now, let’s look at meditation.

I was extensively involved in meditation and at the end of the day, which is quite important to consider, what I have come to realise through meditation is the difference between ‘understanding something’ and then ‘realising something’.
‘Understanding’ is no different to having a book that you read and you understand what it says. It doesn’t mean that you can in fact make it real and that in fact is part of you. It is only knowledge and therefore at the level of ‘understanding’ it is useless.

At the level of ‘Self-Realisation’, it is yourself. And it is real and repeatable, consistent and trustworthy, here and it is within the context of your starting point. So my starting point being ‘What’s Best for All’, ‘What’s Best for All Life’ and all ‘Forms’ and all ‘Ways’ in the Universe. That starting point thus is the point that must be answered as Equality within Self-Realisation for it to be of any value or meaning to me.

If your starting point is ‘only to ‘Serve the Light’ for instance, then obviously your answer is only going to be in terms of what your starting point is. And that is quite important within the Equality Equation and also within the context of what one’s actual Self-Realisation is.

So in meditation which I participated in extensively over many, many years –I have gone through the guided meditations, I’ve done the circles, I’ve done the – you know the circle is where you develop ‘Psychic Abilities’ – participated in that over many years, many times and watched the development of Channels.

I have participated in guided meditations, I found it very difficult to ‘make up’ what they want you to imagine in the guided meditation. You know, “there’s a stream, and under the stream, go and be quiet, wash yourself”- you know, all of the guided meditations are very suggestive and your mind being extremely fast, it will create with a little bit of effort, after you’ve been to a few sessions of guided meditation, it’ll create exactly what the guidance is simulating. And unless it works for you, you’ll move unto another group until you get a group where suddenly your guided meditation is working for you and you go and dump all your stuff there in your imaginary world where you have your imaginary guide. In some cases one will actually, in the old days, have had communication with a guide. But in most cases and for most, this never happened. And only for the few it did and that was made as if it was very special. While in fact it wasn’t. It was just part of a much greater plan, which we will discuss in some future discussions.

Anyway, so – when I found that this guided meditation thing is just not getting it, because the moment I am imagining it, because my starting point is ‘What is Equal and One’, and what is ‘Image and Likeness’, which is the same thing – whenever I make it up, I immediately know that I am making it up, it is not real and I can change it. So therefore I stayed Here within my meditations and I tended to follow my own, call it, “guidance” in not creating some illusionary colourful picture in my mind as if it is real. To me the physical reality, what I see with my eyes, what I touch with my hands and that which it is made up of, which is the unseen that gives it structure and substance of it – that was reality. To actually have an experience that is in the mind, imaginary, made up, that is requiring my participation intensely and very seldom can one find point where something can enter that is not necessarily within the context of your own consciousness. But – that we will discuss at another stage.

Day 557: God's Will versus Free Choice

Continuing from Day 556: Are Demons the Key to Reality?:
"Yes I stopped them, and therefore I proved that self-forgiveness was the tool with self-honesty within which one can affect a real transformation in the physical while here in limited form. And that set the scene to a most astounding experience where the demonic were explored over a long period of time of about a year and a half where I set out to help every demon I can, no matter what unconditionally, to find self-forgiveness."

So after the gifts were given and I practiced them in, I was busy with them and I had regular meetings with the angels and guides from heaven. And through self-forgiveness we decided, me and my ex wife to give the marriage another go and there was another message from God coming through the ex wife from the messenger Chief and said that God is giving me a gift and that would be that the relationship will work, that we get another chance and it will be like absolutely fantastic.

And I could see that because I mean with self-forgiveness you develop quite an intense intimacy and for the first time I could actually embrace with understanding a relationship and truly work at making it work.

So, to my great surprise approximately a year later, my ex wife said she can’t handle it, she wants to move on and she’s met someone else. So I was in absolute shock because we have absolutely discussed the point, we’ve done the self-forgiveness and to me self-forgiveness is an absolute re-birth – obviously it wasn’t so for her.

And I had a discussion with Chief and I wanted to know how could God’s will – because the words used to me was that it was God’s will that we could do our marriage again – how could God’s will not be absolute was my question. There was silence and the answer that came is that she’s got free choice, and I said how could free choice override God’s will? I absolutely could not understand that because to me the obvious was that as long as free choice exists, man exist as ‘’less than, as a demonic force within where they can allow evil to exist and have the choice to choose evil.
But once you have made the choice for God equal and one, or as at that stage I saw it as image and likeness not equal and one, then there is no more choice, that’s the path you walk, that is what I was walking.

The shock was immense. So I realized that my very foundation, my trust in God and God ’s will and in his absolute perfection was shaken. I went on a trip to a Namibia and was in a state of shock where everything inside was dead, there was nothing, I couldn’t find anything. I was breathing, I was a piece of meat, I was speaking, I was doing but there was no feeling whatsoever – I equated that to death, because it’s like something dies. And this experience, this point of free choice, this in essence relationship with God then became one that was no longer one in trust. I was still walking, but understanding that choice could separate man from God. And I would have to walk with that understanding and not be able to have or be in a relationship or experience, such an absolute level of commitment until I have clearly proven to myself that I was in fact walking the image and likeness of God and I was in fact self-fulfilled.

So I started walking within that context, but the change was now absolute. I couldn’t return to my old life, I couldn’t do what I did before. The decisions I made stuck, if I tried to go back I couldn’t. The pain and discomfort was too immense, it was a physical resistance to go back to the old existence.
So I decided to completely submerge myself within finding a solution for this world and placing that first and everything else subject to that, because if that point was satisfied, all would have what is best for all. This was approximately 1995 - fascinating isn’t it? Now nearly 16 years ago.

Day 556: Are Demons the Key to Reality?

Continuing from: Day 555: Self-Forgiveness & Change:
”So I applied the points and all of these points are relevant to the eventual outcome and the eventual point of meeting Jesus, and the final transcendence, the final facing, the embracing of the demonic in the universe. So bear with me, because all the points lead to one astounding discovery - Something I didn’t expect and I’m sure nobody would’ve expected. Especially the way it happened, it couldn’t have been more unlikely for it to happen in such a way."

That was the fascinating thing about what was happening is that, you could not have thought it up. It was happening due to changes, due to actual universal application of oneself, due to the actual transformation would bring about this change because the transformation must have an effect not only on the mental, the metaphysical or in the hereafter – it must have an effect on the physical world here. While there was all this idea that the physical world was the illusion, but that was certainly being challenged more and more as I was doing the self-forgiveness, because what was revealing was pain. Pain was amazing because pain was a measurement, and if I didn’t do my forgiveness effectively the pain would remain. So pain will come at the point when somebody speaks, I react and there’s a pain. Until I have the actual structural re-alignment design of the forgiveness in place, it wouldn’t change. So I was developing a very clear way of directing myself and having a feedback with the physical body.

That would become extremely important eventually in dealing with the demons and finding out when they were deceiving and how they were deceiving and exactly what was the nature of the deception. Because within the universe, which is a reflection of the human body (which is what we found and I will explain that in detail as we go along in the various presentations to come) it was fascinating that one could possibly align all the possible matrixes in the universe within a human physical body even within one cell, and then you can establish the alignment, the relationship that is existent that created it, its origin, and its end, its cycle, its circle, the circle of life – which was always a system and it always had a beginning and an end and it could start at any point.

I mean a circle’s beginning and end is always the same point and it could be any point within the circumference of the circle. So it was fascinating that that played such a fascinating roll in these alignments, therefore your forces in the universe were finite although they were infinite in different ways that they could come about because there were just so many, there was still an end to it. The universe thus had a beginning and an end and therefore it was discernable. Therefore everything was measurable. Therefore one could actually assess everything once you could align and realize the great simplicity that in the small is the big and that in the big is the small, and that it is always a reflection of each other and therefore you could actually establish the actual reality repeatedly. And that was the key through the years that I practiced the gifts and the application of self-forgiveness and the alignment of my physical body to a stage where I could trust every single point no matter what. It took years of practice assessing, placing – I used during that time kinesiology over a period of twelve years utilizing a facilitator, testing out, and obviously the facilitator didn’t know about the other tests I was doing and didn’t know about the physical test and didn’t know how I was doing it, and didn’t know about the visual tests I was using to create cross-referencing alignment systems to test out what is happening and where is it going and how do one take care of it. Within the so called limited illusion that was this reality which was more and more showing itself to not be the illusion, because it was in fact a representation of reality. And what was starting to become clear is that maybe heaven, maybe that which we can’t see, that was maybe the actual illusion.

But let’s see where this takes us. Could it be that the demons held the key to reality in all ways, because the question was ‘what were demons and where were they coming from?’ ‘Why did they exist?’ ‘What was the origin of the demon?’ And it was only once I had really aligned myself and I was satisfied that I was starting to get to a point that I could make a real impact in the world then I start to consider that I am getting ready to take on the demons. And now the question arose ‘Why? Why the demons?’

Look the answer was simple to me because I had an emphatic and absolute trust in God and at that stage was certain that whatever was happening in my life and what I was understanding about self-forgiveness and the physical body and what I was shown was simply a test by God – seeing how the mind cross-referenced, that means that, what I found with the physical alignments once I disengaged the mind was that the left side of the body correspond with the left side of the brain and the right side of the body with the right side of the brain in fact but your mind interpretation system was cross-wired and therefore everything was in reverse. You couldn’t see straight what is here and so everything was like upside down and very difficult to discern. And I saw that the test of forgiveness, the way that God would set up the test would be that one must prove and stand and show in fact that forgiveness work with demons and that if a demon forgive themselves they can find their way back to God. And if one is certain within forgiveness – and at that stage I was very certain because I have tested it over many years within myself in my world – that in fact forgiveness will stand the absolute test and be the way through which evil can become life, because the human that I saw in this world was just as evil in many cases as any demon could ever be. And therefore, if God is all-knowing and all righteous and all of everything then he would’ve left us a way to get back. And that forgiveness from my experience and I have admitted to my life and how I really made a mess of it, I looked at it from the context if I can find my way with forgiveness, any being in the universe can, because I was as evil as they were. I have had within me, the things that I have done that was just the same, there was no difference. And many times they were just in thought but it was the same. The thoughts of rage and anger and harm and deception – it were all the same. Yes I stopped them, and therefore I proved that self-forgiveness was the tool with self-honesty within which one can affect a real transformation in the physical while here in limited form. And that set the scene to a most astounding experience where the demonic were explored over a long period of time of about a year and a half where I set out to help every demon I can, no matter what unconditionally, to find self-forgiveness.

Day 554: The Power of Forgiveness

Before I got to the point of testing the education so extensively I first went through the process of divorce. After I did my divorce I discovered an interesting thing - I looked at my own actions within the context of my relationship within my marriage, and realized that if I entertain the thoughts that were in my mind I become an unpredictable person that tend to be the result of energetic feelings. And many of them being feelings that are misunderstood in rage of not being supported in all kinds of experiences and yet I am the one that made most of the mistakes. So I proposed that, to my ex wife, that we sit down and forgive each other and we made a day to do that and to be honest with each other so for the sake of the children we can move on. And one evening we got together and face to face we started the process of self-forgiveness and asking for forgiveness and speaking the forgiveness out aloud with the undertaking and the understanding that we would push ourselves to forgive and not hold that which we were going to hear for the first time against the other, we are here to clean the slate.

Now obviously at this stage, and this is quite important, Phillip Niemand was already dead although my father was still alive. These two factors are quite important at this stage. We then did the forgiveness and it went very emotional and explosive because things were shared that was not shared before and we did the forgiveness and the experience of release was immense - doing this forgiveness aloud. And as the evening progressed - it went on for many many hours of forgiveness - at some stage suddenly something happened that we knew was possible but which didn’t happen yet which was that the gift of Phillip Niemand which was deep trance medium ship, was transferred to my ex wife, and the next moment Phillip Niemand was in the body and he was extremely pissed off with me. He said to me I must save her and I must tell her what I know, and that I know the answer. And I looked at him and said, “I don’t know what you’re talking about. I mean here I am I am busy doing the forgiveness, I am doing my best. But nobody seemed to want to hear what I have to say. ” He was extremely upset, and eventually even I got upset with him because he was so insisting that apparently I know the answer to what was going on in the universe, and I must save her from what she’s buy doing, which was obviously wanting to have a happy life on earth which was her endeavour. And therefore she wanted to take me out of her life because I am a high risk factor. And I should save her from herself and help her and I didn’t know exactly what he meant and it took many years for me to find out. In fact many many years to find out what it was that Phillip Niemand was really saying to me at that stage, because why could I not understand his message was because I was very certain there were no demonic forces. I mean here I was again doing forgiveness; I have not met a single point that was demonic except human beings that became demonic through their emotional conditions due to environmental issues. So people will get angry or get full of rage because of things that happen in their world, because of jealousy, because of fear. But those actions would be demonic and evil and therefore evil to me only existed in the minds of men and not anywhere else. And so, heaven was a place to aspire for – that was my absolute commitment.

At this stage, after the evening of forgiveness, me and my ex wife decided to give the relationship another try, and a process started that I did not expect. In the evenings suddenly a being would take over my ex wife’s body and start speaking to me in a way that, which I obviously understood due to its very nature as a message from God and it was stated as such, that due to the forgiveness we did and my embracing of forgiveness God had a gift for me – and that was the words that was used. And a process started which was presenting these gifts and that these gifts were presented by people on instruction from God, from the heavens, and these beings were in the heavens. And that if you hear the nature of these gifts, it was astounding and it was very clear that forgiveness was proven to me to be one of the ultimate keys, and God recognized it and was speaking not directly to me, but was sending messengers with messages to me which shows that I have in fact in a small way proven the effectiveness and power of forgiveness. Now, each one of these gifts required me to actually apply the gift and test it out and become it, embrace it, become the living words of it so to speak.

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Day 553: Entering the Education Field

Continuing from Day 552: Is God to Blame for War?

At this stage I entered the education field, specifically initially with mathematics because that was what was available. I was satisfied that mathematics could be taught in a way that could make the human being a better person. Because in applying mathematics they could make decisions in a more calculated way and that from my experience, the human being in essence is good if their environment supports such goodness. There was goodwill in men, and that they only become evil when their environment impulse them to be evil and they are in a survival mode so to speak. Obviously many of these points would be challenged in the years to come, as I watch mankind spiralling into in itself a demonic force that simply wouldn’t give each other a chance unless you adhere to the rules - which I have already learned through my own direct experience - was in fact harmful and deliberate, deceptive and destructive which is the principles of capitalism. Yes, don’t react to that because I will explain in time why.

This was something that was already quite clear at that stage although I did understand that without the money, without a way to generate the income – one will not bring about a better world, and I endeavoured to find ways to empower people especially within the realms of money because then they can explore the potential of their own goodwill. That seemed to be challenged though in time.

But at this stage still very clearly to me God was good and great. I didn’t as such at that stage speak to angels, I was more interested to hear the stories from the people that would talk through the deep trance medium. Quite interesting, there was quite a number of people that would come and try and leave messages to their loved ones on earth. The primary message was that they were alive and that or they would want to be forgiven or that things was different to what it was taught, but nothing was clearly placed, there was always like an interference. There was a gate keeper, a door keeper with the trance that would only allow certain messages and that would be placed to me as being the will of God, that is what God allows – and I never questioned that. I mean, I have accepted God as the ultimate force and as the fathering force, as the origin, as the creator completely at that stage. And we will explore God in my next book which is ‘Meeting God’ where I will explain the experience of that.

Now during this time in working with education, I explored eventually the way or ways to educate or teach reading skills in a way that it becomes available to everyone in the world, because that through my own experience was proven to me to be one of the most important things/skills/abilities a human being should have. But there was no movement in the education system towards developing these skills in any effective way, and in spite of many endeavours and discussions even up to governmental task force level and proving in front of them, the group/assessors, that one can take a seemingly ‘disabled child’, one that has got learning disabilities, and within a short period of time prove to the child that they don’t in fact have the disability, that it is purely a social condition. In spite of all of that, the decision that was made in terms of reading skills in the education was not based on what’s best for the children. It was based on money and who was making money out of the point, and therefore the product we presented was simply sidelined and because we didn’t come up with any way of benefitting the governmental people, that means buying them off, we just simply were not part of the solution.

When it became clear that that would be the way we’ll have to go and I refused to go that way and then approached it differently in terms of really starting to push the point of making it available at home and in school in as many ways as possible, and in the same time developing a force that will be presenting it regularly, realizing one thing, that if your sales force make enough money they will be dedicated to the product. People are not at that stage, I found, were not able to or willing to dedicate their life to just a cause, they are interested in one thing – their own betterment of their life. And if you can offer that, they will believe anything and obviously if what you are showing can be proven and they can demonstrate such things - which was possible with reading – then you obviously have an absolute winner. And then money and how much people has to pay for it becomes irrelevant.

That is how we then approached the point and the underlying fact of why I was doing it, nobody was really interested in. They were not interested in the fact that I am interested in changing the world, making it a better place for all – nobody was interested in that. People were interested in their own betterment which was financial in nature. And if what they are doing was also a feel good thing, I’m doing this to make the world a better place, that’s cool, but they would not stand by that ultimately, which was proven through time - they would only stand by money. And, if possible they will stab you in the back and try and do their own way of making even more money.

Granted I made mistakes in the whole approach in placing not enough emphasis on the nature of man once confronted with money. And therefore I ended up trusting where I shouldn’t have. I should have stuck to the principles of what is best for all and kept that responsibility my own. But I started sharing that responsibility, bringing in other people to also consider and walk in places of responsibility to bring about eventually a world that is a better place for all, but when it came to the point of actually walking it, that didn’t materialize and everything went up in smoke as if overnight it dissipated and disappeared.

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