Day 559: Complete Body Awareness

Continuing from Day 558: Meditation, Understanding and Self-Realisation.

So, I moved on from there into a more ‘physical’ meditation with the actual breathing and movement of myself within the body. Becoming and practicing my total awareness within the physical body. That was a very painful meditation, but I realised that ‘unless I am actually present in all and every cell of my body – I am not the directive principle of my physicality and I am not directed within this physical world. So I used breathing, moving in and out of the body and had much pain in the process, but if one persists, eventually one manages to instantaneously be in an relaxed physical state with a single breath.

Which was the point, was to identify any hidden emotion, any hidden energy, any hidden point that is in control of any part of the physical.

Obviously I developed through time and much practice ‘coercive relationship’ with the physical to indicate to me wherever something is out of place. It took many years to develop which I then cross-referenced and checked on other people’s bodies . And I had to be able to immediately point out the pain, the point without any help from them and without them even knowing that I’m looking so that they as they ‘observer’ cannot influence what it is I am physically experiencing in my body, it must correspond and I will never share with them initially, that I am also having the pain, I will not explain ‘how’. Because I was testing over many years, it was astoundingly effective. One is here as every point, 100% effective. Indicating that one can actually find the Forgiveness necessary, find the Self-Honest Relationship, the Equality Point – meaning – ‘What was the Equation’ and the ‘Relationship’ that created that point, do the Forgiveness and it’ll release. Not only in the person’s body but also in your own body as well. Proving beyond a doubt – Equality and Oneness within the Physical, Here.

I’ve been working with that extensively.

A simple guideline emerged. Whenever I can feel the pain of another, it is my duty, my responsibility to work with the person. If I don’t, it’s their own and they’re ready to handle it themselves. And until they can determine what is a pain that is theirs or another’s, it is always their pain. It is only once you have dealt with your complete integration, physically, that you can actually start to take responsibility for other people. Before that you will use your mind and you will mind-warp other people.

Day 556: Are Demons the Key to Reality?

Continuing from: Day 555: Self-Forgiveness & Change:
”So I applied the points and all of these points are relevant to the eventual outcome and the eventual point of meeting Jesus, and the final transcendence, the final facing, the embracing of the demonic in the universe. So bear with me, because all the points lead to one astounding discovery - Something I didn’t expect and I’m sure nobody would’ve expected. Especially the way it happened, it couldn’t have been more unlikely for it to happen in such a way."

That was the fascinating thing about what was happening is that, you could not have thought it up. It was happening due to changes, due to actual universal application of oneself, due to the actual transformation would bring about this change because the transformation must have an effect not only on the mental, the metaphysical or in the hereafter – it must have an effect on the physical world here. While there was all this idea that the physical world was the illusion, but that was certainly being challenged more and more as I was doing the self-forgiveness, because what was revealing was pain. Pain was amazing because pain was a measurement, and if I didn’t do my forgiveness effectively the pain would remain. So pain will come at the point when somebody speaks, I react and there’s a pain. Until I have the actual structural re-alignment design of the forgiveness in place, it wouldn’t change. So I was developing a very clear way of directing myself and having a feedback with the physical body.

That would become extremely important eventually in dealing with the demons and finding out when they were deceiving and how they were deceiving and exactly what was the nature of the deception. Because within the universe, which is a reflection of the human body (which is what we found and I will explain that in detail as we go along in the various presentations to come) it was fascinating that one could possibly align all the possible matrixes in the universe within a human physical body even within one cell, and then you can establish the alignment, the relationship that is existent that created it, its origin, and its end, its cycle, its circle, the circle of life – which was always a system and it always had a beginning and an end and it could start at any point.

I mean a circle’s beginning and end is always the same point and it could be any point within the circumference of the circle. So it was fascinating that that played such a fascinating roll in these alignments, therefore your forces in the universe were finite although they were infinite in different ways that they could come about because there were just so many, there was still an end to it. The universe thus had a beginning and an end and therefore it was discernable. Therefore everything was measurable. Therefore one could actually assess everything once you could align and realize the great simplicity that in the small is the big and that in the big is the small, and that it is always a reflection of each other and therefore you could actually establish the actual reality repeatedly. And that was the key through the years that I practiced the gifts and the application of self-forgiveness and the alignment of my physical body to a stage where I could trust every single point no matter what. It took years of practice assessing, placing – I used during that time kinesiology over a period of twelve years utilizing a facilitator, testing out, and obviously the facilitator didn’t know about the other tests I was doing and didn’t know about the physical test and didn’t know how I was doing it, and didn’t know about the visual tests I was using to create cross-referencing alignment systems to test out what is happening and where is it going and how do one take care of it. Within the so called limited illusion that was this reality which was more and more showing itself to not be the illusion, because it was in fact a representation of reality. And what was starting to become clear is that maybe heaven, maybe that which we can’t see, that was maybe the actual illusion.

But let’s see where this takes us. Could it be that the demons held the key to reality in all ways, because the question was ‘what were demons and where were they coming from?’ ‘Why did they exist?’ ‘What was the origin of the demon?’ And it was only once I had really aligned myself and I was satisfied that I was starting to get to a point that I could make a real impact in the world then I start to consider that I am getting ready to take on the demons. And now the question arose ‘Why? Why the demons?’

Look the answer was simple to me because I had an emphatic and absolute trust in God and at that stage was certain that whatever was happening in my life and what I was understanding about self-forgiveness and the physical body and what I was shown was simply a test by God – seeing how the mind cross-referenced, that means that, what I found with the physical alignments once I disengaged the mind was that the left side of the body correspond with the left side of the brain and the right side of the body with the right side of the brain in fact but your mind interpretation system was cross-wired and therefore everything was in reverse. You couldn’t see straight what is here and so everything was like upside down and very difficult to discern. And I saw that the test of forgiveness, the way that God would set up the test would be that one must prove and stand and show in fact that forgiveness work with demons and that if a demon forgive themselves they can find their way back to God. And if one is certain within forgiveness – and at that stage I was very certain because I have tested it over many years within myself in my world – that in fact forgiveness will stand the absolute test and be the way through which evil can become life, because the human that I saw in this world was just as evil in many cases as any demon could ever be. And therefore, if God is all-knowing and all righteous and all of everything then he would’ve left us a way to get back. And that forgiveness from my experience and I have admitted to my life and how I really made a mess of it, I looked at it from the context if I can find my way with forgiveness, any being in the universe can, because I was as evil as they were. I have had within me, the things that I have done that was just the same, there was no difference. And many times they were just in thought but it was the same. The thoughts of rage and anger and harm and deception – it were all the same. Yes I stopped them, and therefore I proved that self-forgiveness was the tool with self-honesty within which one can affect a real transformation in the physical while here in limited form. And that set the scene to a most astounding experience where the demonic were explored over a long period of time of about a year and a half where I set out to help every demon I can, no matter what unconditionally, to find self-forgiveness.

Day 540: Astrology – Suffering and Belief – Part 3

 

Continuing from the previous blog: Day 539: Astrology – Symbolic Possession – Part 2:

Bernard: In that big ‘great divine plan’ is the absolute abdication of your Personal Directive Principle: your integrity – everything you have abdicate the moment you allow in your perceptual reality any form of abuse.
Darryl: That was the one that was pushed that caused me to question a ‘divine plan’ because I couldn't see a reason or justification of suffering as part of the ‘divine plan.’
Bernard: Obviously, I mean...
Darryl: But if you look at the other people who are still following, it looks like, totally acceptable. It took the form of them saying ‘it’s their choice.’ (People who suffer).

Bernard: You’ll find invariably that the person will only question their reality if their money and their livelihood is threatened, and their home is taken away. If those things are stable, the person will not question their beliefs.

Darryl: Well, this is funny. Because everything was going ‘right’ for me. As soon as I put that doubt in my mind, things started to change, like boom! I lost it all.

Bernard: Yes, because you’re now questioning the system. The system is god and therefore automatically that which supports you is taken away so…

What will now happen for beings in this reality is that their livelihood and their security and their homes will be taken away so that they can realize there’s a problem. So the god system will no longer support you just because you’re god – obviously the deeper your belief, the longer It takes before it crash and the bigger the crash – it’s even in the ‘divine books’ that this is what is going to happen.
Darryl: The Job Experience you were talking about.

Bernard: Yes, but also Revelations. Revelations shows particularly that the events on this Earth are going to be extensive. Now that will be the time where believers will be challenged greatly.

Imagine: as great as your obsession and possession, so great will be your challenge.

Darryl: I would say when the rapture does occur or another question, what was that about? Just a belief of ‘hope’ that I won’t have to experience the fuck up ‘cause I will be…

Bernard: Is basically because if you believe you’re not going to suffer - it’s all done in the name of I mean have a look at some of the reasoning behind the belief
systems - I mean ‘at least I don’t have to suffer, Jesus has suffered for me.’

Darryl: That is insanity. Christianity

Bernard: Yes I mean so it’s all fear of suffering. Yet if you look at Revelations is clearly stated that everyone is going to suffer extensively –

Darryl: ‘Oh! except god’s chosen who believed.’

Bernard: Oh, no. if you really look at it, they were also going to suffer extensively. So you’re really like fucked in every way because you have no way out

Darryl: And Satan’s given a thousand years..

Bernard: Yes, I mean take one day of suffering and starvation – and then extend that to a thousand years, you wouldn’t tell me that you still fucking believe in god, come on!

Some Self Honesty is necessary, isn’t it?

Day 208: Pain & Radical Self-Honesty - ADC - Part 56

This blog is part of the After Death Communication Series

The History of Life After Death - Part 40

So we continue with the Pain Point, and what I suggest here – is: to use Radical Self-Honesty within your Moment-to-Moment Breath-Life wherein you initially, deliberately Challenge your acceptances and allowances as ‘Who you have become within the System’, through looking at “What would be Best for All Life” in that Moment - if you were in a Reality that was Best for all, “How would you have Lived it?” And to Observe, specifically, what Discomfort arise in the Physical Body. If no Discomfort arise, you’re still in the Mind. So, here – discomfort is already an Indication that you are starting to use the Quantum Physical Mind, through a Radical Movement in Awareness of your Relationships from your current Preprogrammed Self-Interest as the World System, to your Participation within a ONE BODY World System as Life as What is Best for All. This will not produce any particular Result, and you’re not going to Act it out – as you’re purely, first of all, Identifying the Programs by bringing them into your Awareness, through Pain, that are the programs that you are Living As, as a Choice, so to speak, you made BEFORE you incarnated on Earth.

(With “This will not produce any particular Result, and you’re not going to Act it out…” means that, the above process one initially only walk for self, WITHIN self in and through writing and self-forgiveness/breath – investigating the patterns, the systems that’s come to define self and self’s life and how self would have changed the moment, the relationship and one’s behaviour within that if/as one stood in/as the principle of What is Best for All. In and through this process, self will start the initial phase of re-aligning self/self’s awareness to how to live in/as the principle of What’s Best for All instead of the Preprogramming of the Mind, the System we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be/become)

Within this, it is Important to Realise, that if you keep submitting to the Preprogrammed Design of the Soul, so to speak – you Will Only Ever look at Satisfying your Self-Interest, and you will Justify Suffering with Great Ease by claiming that you have ‘No Authority’ over what is happening on Earth. This in itself would be you allowing the Authority as Life you could be, to be Abdicated and in a sense, you would Sell your Life for Self-Interest. It will make your life seem easier, because you will be existing in the Mind, separate from Physical Reality – oblivious to the actual torture you inflict on the Actual Physical, to gain the Energy through which you Create your Consciousness as its various feeling and emotion Experiences.

So, it is Suggested that One look at the Point of Self-Honesty, the Point of the Present-Breath Here as the Reality-Moment, and to walk that Breath with Full Attention to Observe, through the Physical Feedback – what it is that you Allow to Dominate, as Pattern, your Existence - and how that Contribute to a World of Inequality. Especially look at How you React to any Principle that ‘threaten’ That which you believe is ‘yours’, because you have ‘earned it’. Realising, that you are in fact Never Owning Anything, as Everything of you – from Energy to the Physical Flesh: is only ‘on Loan’ to you, from the Earth. And that, when you were Born – you had, in fact, Not yet had Any particular Awareness of Anything and was only Existing in the Beginning, by the Great Ingenuity of the Nature of Earth, being a Mixture between Plant and Beast as Egg and Seed, growing into a Tree of Life that was supposed to Produce the Fruit of Life as that Which is Best for All Life. But, through a Process of Designing a System as the Mind, and Forcing it onto the Physical Self: one has Completely Separated yourself into That which produce only Self Interest, which is Energy. And in this, you have made the Physical the ‘House of Pain’ and the Mind the ‘House of Pleasure’ - Reducing the Physical to a Slave. Similarly to How Consumption reduced the Earth to just a commodity and a slave to the wants and desires of Human Consciousness and Civilization, which is only a Product of the Mind.

The Process of Learning from your own Patterns, through the Law of Resistance and observing the discomforts that it produce, will only be as Effective as you are Willing to go/walk. Here, Remember – that: it will take a minimum of 7 Years to identify all your Specific Patterns, and that it is Possible to Also Learn through Observing the Patterns of others, and Observing the Greater Patterns of the World System in How it Produce Suffering; as those are the same Patterns on a Bigger Scale, as the Patterns that you are using to Force the Physical into Submission and Slavery, through the Mind. This is Why there is no Difference between the Mind as the ‘House of Pleasure’ and the World as a System Driven by the ‘Pursuit of Happiness’, within which there is a Total Disregard for the Consequential Suffering that is Caused through Forcing a particular ideology onto Life, which Excludes Valuing Life and IMPOSE only Self-Interest.

It is Best, if you have the Integrity – to, where possible: Remove yourself from any point that purely just serves Self-Interest, and the vehicle as Self-Interest – only have Value if that Resultant benefit will be used and Directed to assist in producing a World that is Best for All Life, Always.

We will continue in the Next Post.

Day 207: Pain and Pre-Programmed Design - ADC - Part 55

The History with Life After Death – Part 39

We continue with looking at How to use Pain Effectively, in Finding your Preprogrammed Design that Acts as the Automated Generator of your Energetic Consciousness.

Here, you must Understand, that when you are Walking in your Preprogramming and you are Living it – you will Experience your Life as Working and you will be very ‘Happy’ with your Life, because that is the Reward programmed in, to Keep you within the Designed Self-Interest of your particular ‘Life Placement’ within the Greater Design, which has been Hidden from Man since the Beginning, because: if you Knew the Truth about the Soul and All that goes with it as Consciousness – you would have Fought this Preprogramming, tooth and nail, in Every Way Possible. But, due to this Existing within the Flesh, outside the Frequency of your Senses – you are in effect, Unaware of it, Completely, and cannot see the Systems and are Purely the Result of these Systems as Energy, that Keeps you Functioning within a Pre-Determined Plan, while you are Fed False Information that seem to make sense and correspond with your ‘Feelings’ and so-called ‘Intuition’, and therefore you have accepted the slaughter-house of Earth for Generations upon Generations, NEVER Actually, EVER, ASKING the Questions or Challenging the Design to Find-out: What is REAL.

The Human have even Justified Levels of Brutality and Abuse that they would NEVER ALLOW to happen to themselves or their Children, but just because it happens to someone else: it is ‘Self-Righteously Justified’, and a meaning and reason is given to it through a Way of Logic that is Biologically created by the Body as the System to have a ‘Feeling’ Result that is Trusted above ALL ELSE, but not a Single One that trust these feelings or emotions, have a clue where they come from or how they are Created, and they are simply Termed a ‘Higher Force’ / ‘Love’ / ‘Divine Intervention’ / ‘Universal Mind’ – it is ASTOUNDING, the level of Justification that Exist.

Within this, Obviously, Millions upon Millions landed in the Demon Dimension After Death – for arbitrary reasons, but essentially because: they were ‘Incompatible’ with the Program of Control that was Based on ‘Love’ and ‘Consciousness’ and therefore they were banished – as it also Acted as a very Efficient tool of Fear to Keep the Rest in Line, through the Reward System that Heaven provided.

In essence, it was like a Consumer-System, where you have the ‘Good Products’, which were the ones going to Heaven and you had the ‘Waste Products’, which were the Demons. Nobody Realised, that in the Eyes of Heaven – they were only Products in the Production Line, that was Mining the Living Earth with the Mind, converting it into various forms of Energy from which the Heavens and Consciousness and All that goes with it, were Created.

Fortunately there are Some ways one can Challenge this within you, if by Some Bizarre Fate you do still have some Integrity Left. This for instance is: the Law of Resistance. If you deliberately Resist your Program and focus on what is Best for All Life, for instance: you are going to Experience, through time, more and more Pain, Discomfort, Physical Pain Impulses – all Kinds of ‘Dis-Ease’, Not the Form that is Illness, necessarily. Through this, and Observing the particular point you are Resisting – you will be able to look at the corresponding Pain, in terms of where it is Occurring within your Physical Body. Now, here – because it is One System, realise the Obvious: the Pain will Always be Exactly the same for Everyone, in terms of its Location in the Body and the Particular Program-Design it represents. From this Base-Foundation, it will circle out and take on the Unique Features of your Individuality, and if you want to have a Lengthy spell of Discomfort, then you will go through All the steps of your Unique Individuality and dismember those Points through self-forgiveness to give yourself the Right to Responsibility for your own Existence through Self-Honesty.

But if you are Able to consider that the very Design in its Base Functioning of Oneness within this Consciousness System, is exactly the same, and it only takes on many faces – like different TV series, you can go to the Root of the Problem Directly, so to speak – to the Root of Evil, where Evil represents the Opposite of Life, which is what the Human in essence function as through the Mind as Consciousness. So, within this – you will then Radically Walk as Breath moment-to-moment, as Reality, Directing yourself within this to be at All Times, where Feasible and Possible, the Directive Principle that will Inevitably Produce that which is Best for All Life AS the Living Decision within and as the Living Breath that will Never Stop or Give In to the Uniqueness, until the Foundation of Life as Equal as One is placed forevermore as the Only Starting Point from which Life will Emerge. And so – one will use the Pain to Find within you the Designs as the Signs of Pain, and then use the Science of Relationships and Mathematics, which is the Foundation of All Existence – to Redesign yourself, to What is Best for All Life.

In the next Post we’ll go into Specific Examples of what was walked in the relationships to Pain

Day 206: The Relationship between Pain and the Body - ADC - Part 54

This blog is part of the After Death Communication series

The History with Life After Death – Part 38

 An Important Point to consider in this Research on the Afterlife and the Multiple Dimensions that existed, is to Look at the Role the Physical Body and Pain specifically, play within this - as an Indicator of the specific points that occur and their specific movement and/or removal.

One of the First significant points I experienced with doing Self Forgiveness, was: something one can describe as a ‘Heightened Sensibility / Sensitivity’ over the whole Body, of Energy, in a Form that the Mind would normally interpret as ‘Excitement’. What it really was: was actually Relief. And therefore, the Body felt ‘Lighter’, virtually in a state of Bliss – and this is very easily misinterpreted and aligned to the Mind, through giving the experience some Spiritual Value when it is in fact simply a Physical Response, just a Letting Go.

From this emerged a Fascinating Point, because I took the Point of Living Moment-to-Moment to a Practical Living Way as a PHYSICAL Walk as Breath-by-Breath, because the Real Moment of the Human Body as the Real Self is: the Breath. And, one’s Total Presence as the Physical Self is during the Breath. The Breath that’s gone – is the Past, the Breath yet to come – is the Future, and what occur During a Breath – is the Current-Present of this World, of your Life, of ‘where you are’ within the current accepted and allowed System. The very moment you view the Breath-Moment through the Mind, you start with Interpretation and immediately form a Value-System through your Mind, which is Subjective and which will Judge something as either ‘Good’ / ‘Bad’. And, Remember Here: Any Judgment, immediately, is Separation – and have Consequence, because your Present-Awareness is no longer Present, it has moved into the Presence of the Mind as Interpretation, which immediately takes you into a Different Time-Zone of your own Making, in your own Mind as a Dimension, which is immediately converted through the Quantum Physical into a Memory – where you are then Characterized as a Character in the Memory and ALL that happened in the past-moment, becomes Characters and Props which takes-on definitions as per your Interpretation, and you have Completely Lost Touch with Reality.

As I was Walking this Moment-to-Moment Breath, I noticed a peculiar feedback from the Body, because the Body was relaxed and flowing as Breath as the Present-Breath, as the Present-Moment, as the ACTUAL Presence, Here, as Myself, as the Physical Body in this Physical World – observing what we have Done to our Reality - and, the Moment I go into the Mind to Interpret it: the Body would constrict and there would be Pain.

Obviously, due to the Extensive Self Forgiveness I did in the Beginning, and my Absolute Decision to be Self Honest and to have no more Secrets and Hide Nothing: caused an Extensive Relief, as it was the Letting-go of the Burden of the Life I lived in the Mind, which had to be fed by Energy from the Physical, Constantly, in a level of Awareness about Interpretations, while Never being Aware about the Actual Physical Reality of this World.

So, this State of Relaxation was Significant – as was the sudden Reward of going into the Mind as constriction, pain, discomfort, disease, headache – all depending on a very interesting thing, something I Realised through Extensive Testing of the Relationship between Thought, Memory and the Physical Body, that: Memories were stored throughout the Physical Body. And thus Pain – whenever it arise in the Body, would be specific to a particular area in the Body. And that according to that Area of the Body, one could actually Look at the type of Memory that was, for instance, producing a particular Thought to be Shown on the Screen of Interpretation of the Mind – taking one away from your Present-Breath Moment, into your Own Illusionary Production-House of Self-Delusion as Thought.
I realised, that: if I would Entertain these Thoughts, the only One that in the End, would suffer the Consequence of Missing Actual Reality, Here in the Physical: would be Me.

A more peculiar thing though, was: when I Spoke to Anyone from this Breath-Moment as the Physical, they couldn’t Understand a Word I was saying or Hear what I was explaining. I Found myself, Suddenly, Completely Alone; as I could no longer Entertain the Constant-Production of Bullshit as Thought and Mind.

In this though, started a fascinating Journey, in terms of the Relationship between Pain and the Body, and Memory and Thought, and the Interpretation one would Give To these Thoughts based on your Education from Birth through the Family, the Media, the School, the University and how that would Shape, Multi-Dimensions of the Mind, within which one – if you would Embrace it: would become Trapped to such a Degree, that you could Completely end-up believing, that what you are Interpreting through the Mind is in fact ‘You’. When, in fact, ALL of it – everything that you were Aware of through the Mind, even as the point that was Aware – was not in fact REAL. And in moving into the Mind, as this, which eventually became termed ‘Consciousness’, and ‘Presence’ – one, in fact, Abdicate the Life-Force that will continue After Death and will leave one at a Great Disadvantage; as the Influence of the Energy you eventually Produce through the Mind as Emotion and Feeling, would become So Descriptively Energized and Animated - that it would Even Determine what will Emerge from the Physical Body upon Death.

For instance: we have Observed, in Extreme Situations, emerging from the Physical Body, for instance, at Death – in the case of an Obsessive Gamer: a Gaming system with screen and all emerging from the Body, as the being completely transformed themselves into such a Device, completely Lost. And in cases, before the Soul System was Removed - such a being would immediately be discarded to the Demon Dimension. Since the Soul System has been Removed - the being is now assisted to see what they have done with their Life, with a Life Review. But, Many Beings, throughout time, Ended up in the Demon Dimension, simply because – even at the level of the Creator Gods, they did not Know what they actually Walked into, when they started Creating Life on Earth and what Earth itself as Life-Force actually represented, and to what Extent the Creativity of a Mind within a Physical Body could Demonize a Being.

So, we will continue with the point of Pain in the next post, as we Touch on various points, that throughout this Series will all be relevant, so that one can grasp the Extent of the problem of Ignorance that exist on Earth in terms of All current Knowledge of Spirituality and Philosophy and whatever has been Valued.
Certainly – no one has a clue of even the Most Basic Mechanics of their Own Consciousness, yet they act with Arrogance and Ego, pretending to ‘Know it All’.

Best be Humble when the Door of Death opens, because you don’t know when that will happen – and that is a Line, from which you do Not return.

Spend your Breath well.

Day 100: FEAR

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Fear is the Aim of the Game on EARth, a PLANet where sound is Minded as Words Live as Fear to Control what is Here and What is Heard so that the Receiving Organic Robot Fears hurt as PAIN to remain in the Cycles of PAYING the bILLS of the ILLUsion created by the Controllers of the Game – in this Process, Making Sure that the Reality of Life on EARth is Never Taken to hEARt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Parents are the Genes that Ensure GENEration after GENEration that the Symbols that sound the Fears as Words LIVED remains the Devil that Drives the Decision of WHO I AM according to the Rules of the Game, where I must profit into the Game or MY NEEDS will not be Covered by the Credits I accumulate as MONEY.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that FEAR is the Nature of the Game that Motivates me to Keep Moving as the Characters in the Game towards the Objective of the Game by Creating the other Side of the Coin of Fear as Love – Symbolizing the Circle of Life, Coined as a Choice of Opposites – yet, it is ONE Coin that ensures CONtrol so that I remain in my ROLE, following the control of the Energy of the Game which is Fear as the Totality of the HERE of the Game as the Only thing I can HEAR while playing the Game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Love in all its Dimensions within the Game that can be Mentioned only Exists because of the Nature of the Game, which is Fear, ensuring that all Energy Ever Experienced is only ever Founded within the Fountain of Fear created within the Body through Symbols as Words, as Pictures, as Memories, as Characters – ensuring that Every Reason and Meaning as Answer only ever can be Fear as Long as One beLIEves in Love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Childhood Games Parents Play with Children are Designed to Program in the Exhilaration FEAR provides so that the Child Can Characterize themselves to the Foundation of FEAR as Life on EARTH to Eventually Seek Love to Keep Moving in the System, as the Parents will Make Sure Love is Placed as the Place of Safety and Fear the Place to Move From so that the Cycles of Life as the Wheel of Life as We Exist May TURN effectively to NEVER Question Life on Earth as the Quest of the Game is Set – FIND LOVE or You WILL BE IN FEAR.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in this Program MISTAKEN as Life the FEAR is Placed that Experience is Temporary and thus, if you DO NOT Play you Lose the Opportunity to Experience the Game, because Real Life aPARENTly exists after the END of the Game as Death with LOFTY Promises Made of SOMETHING Better to Come. This Makes Sure that Everyone in the GAME always MOTIVATES each other to STAY in the GAME as At Least it Must Be Real, as the Energy Experienced is Real – yet NO ONE Realized that they Are the ONES Creating the Experience and When the Creation of the Energy of LOVE and Fear STOPS, I WILL Remain – thus there Must Be Something Beyond Energy, But FEAR STOPS us From Finding Out WHO We Will Be WITHOUT The Energy we have Defined ourselves to BE.

I commit myself to SHOW that Energy IS NOT Real Life on Earth, It is the Result of FEAR and its MATE, LOVE.

I commit myself to SHOWS that FEAR is the Foundation of ALL Love with the Game of Human Nature accepted Foolishly as the Natural Way of Being.

I commit myself to SHOW that One that PROFESS LOVE, IS Completely LOST in the GAME as the ILLosing/Illusion of a Self-Created Reality within the MIND where Nothing Seen as Self is Every Real, But just a Lie Constantly Created by Self.

I commit myself to SHOW that the FEAR as the Purpose of Life as LOVE, is the Reason why Real Life on Earth Can Be Abused WITHOUT ANY actual Awareness as Awareness has been Defined to Be Energy, a Self-Created Illusion that Became a Parasite feeding off the Flesh of the Real Flesh Living Being.

I commit myself to SHOW that the DESTENI of Life is NOT in the Game as Energy and WILL take Great Effort to Be achieved as the POSSESSION of the LIE is Overwhelming as the Energy allowed to be accepted as Life.

I commit myself to SHOW that those LOST in the Game Must Compete and thus Cannot See Equality as Life Equal in All Actual Living Beings and will thus Kill and Allow Killing to take Place without any REMORSE as the More is Seen to Be Energy, while Real Life is BeLIEved to Be Temporary.

I commit myself to SHOW that DOOM does not Exist in the Lifetime of Humanity and that DOOM is to Be the MOODS of the Energy Game where Fear is the Control of Love. STOP, if you Can or Death will STOP you to face the Consequence of Abusing Life on Earth.

I commit myself to SHOW that to those In the GAME, Desteni will Represent the ULTIMATE FEAR, as in TOTAL Opposition to LOVE - as Desteni Represents the END of the Game - Meaning that One Realizes the GAME, as Fear and Love, was a LIE.

Day 70: Backchat

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the Inner-Dimension of the Accepted and Allowed Self Functions like a MIRROR that can be Viewed by Self as a Measurement of Self-Honesty and Integrity - and if Dishonest and without Integrity, will be Focussed on Self-Interest, and when Self-Honest with Life, Integrity will Reflect in ALL ways what is Best for all Life ALWAYS.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that thoughts are the Memory Relationship Experiences Over Time, Programmed into the Mirror as the Physical Body that Reflects what has been Accepted and Allowed as Self that Participates in this World, which will show in the World System and the Place the Self Occupies in the World System.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Backchat exists as Thoughts, Feelings, Emotions, Memory, Justification, Behaviour, Desires, Fears, Likes, Dislikes, Love and Time – as ALL the Dimensions of the Self as Personal Consciousness that Accept the World Consciousness as it Exists Today.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Backchat acts as the Protector of Personal Self-Interest and is always Developing Relationships to Allow the Personal Consciousness to Serve as a Unique Entity that is Valued according to Backchat, and the Feedback Received from other Human’s Backchat, and the Backchat of the World System that will Reflect the Position of the Ego in the World System used as Validation that this is Real, WITHOUT having a clue how this Inner-Self that is So Highly Trusted, is Actually Created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the World as it Exists is the Product of the Inner-Feedback as Backchat that Only Serves the Ego in the Contest of Winning and Conquering Perceived World Values for the Purpose of Validating the Self as Interest as a Value of Happiness, Disregarding Life unless the Human is in Immediate Danger, Forcing Change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Backchat can Only be assessed through writing, or Visible Behaviour, or Word Context by an External Support - and can be Hidden within Fake Presentations by the Ego as Private and Personal, which will also be Revealed within the Context that the Person Stands, in Personal and World Relationships – showing whether within the Participation each is Protecting Ownership and Belief, or Lead to What is Best for all Life in all Ways. In this, the SKILL of Self-Honesty must be developed to find How this ABOMINATION as Inner-Self Ego was Created that has Caused a World that DOES NOT HONOR LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the actual Thoughts of Another Cannot Be Seen as it is the Process of Self-Honesty that Gives the Person the Opportunity to Rebirth as Life here in the Physical and it Remains the Personal Responsibility of Each One that will Determine the Consequence after Death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Pain Plays a Role in Supporting Self and Others in Determining where the Ego Abuses the Physical by Creating Ways of Existence that are NOT Best for All Life, and that Pain will only emerge after Extensive Self-Honest, Self-Forgiveness and Committed Correction - and will take Several Year of Investigation to Establish a Clear Self-Honest, Self-Support to Eventually Lead to the Actual Rebirth as Life, as the Physical, as the Living Word, as What is Best for All Life: Always.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the Study of Inner-Self Should be in the Context of the Physical World that will Create a Human as Self that is Best for All Life Always with NO Personal Self-Interest ever featuring, Never Mind Being as the Cause of Decisions as Who the Person is IN THIS WORLD.

I commit myself to show that the Inner-Self that has become a Consumer Product in Especially Spirituality, is the Evil that Misrepresents Spirit as Life on Earth – causing the Physical as Real Life to Be Subjected to a Life of Horror if Basic Support Like Money is Not Available.

I commit myself to show that thought is ALWAYS about Self-Interest and NEVER about what is Best for Life on Earth.

I commit myself to show that the Programming of the Inner-Self as Conscious Awareness is NOT Understood and therefore Allowed to be an Entity that can Roam the Earth Unchecked, Causing Endless Harm to Life.

I commit myself to show that Anyone Reacting to the Message of Desteni is Under the Influence of the Inner-Entity as Self-Consciousness that will do Anything to Protect itself from being Held Accountable.

I commit myself to show those WILLING to Accept the Challenge, to Become Self-Honest to Eventually Birth the Real Self as Life form the Physical, how the Inner-Entity is Programmed and Can be Removed.

I commit myself to show that the World System is the Reflection of the Inner-Self Consciousness of the Entity, and as the World is Not a Place for Life, so is the Entity as Self-Ego, Not Life.

I commit myself to show that Self-Honesty is Never a Game of Superiority or Knowledge and Must be Cross-Referenced in Both the Bodies of the Ego-Entity and the Buddy-Support through Direct Demonstration without Question, or any Possibility of Manipulation.

I commit myself to show that writing is a Tool of Self-Discipline that will Greatly assist in the Removal of the Entity and that this Process will take a Minimum of 7 years of Daily Self-Honest, Self-Forgiveness with Committed Directive Action that Must Lead IN ALL WAYS to a World that is Best for all Life Eternally.

I commit myself to show that if the External Life is Not Created as what is Best for all Life on Earth, Even in Limitation, No Eternal Life will Exist after Death.