Day 558: Meditation, Understanding and Self-Realisation

So we continue with What the Demons Taught me About the Message of Jesus, Secrets of Jesus.
Now, let’s look at meditation.

I was extensively involved in meditation and at the end of the day, which is quite important to consider, what I have come to realise through meditation is the difference between ‘understanding something’ and then ‘realising something’.
‘Understanding’ is no different to having a book that you read and you understand what it says. It doesn’t mean that you can in fact make it real and that in fact is part of you. It is only knowledge and therefore at the level of ‘understanding’ it is useless.

At the level of ‘Self-Realisation’, it is yourself. And it is real and repeatable, consistent and trustworthy, here and it is within the context of your starting point. So my starting point being ‘What’s Best for All’, ‘What’s Best for All Life’ and all ‘Forms’ and all ‘Ways’ in the Universe. That starting point thus is the point that must be answered as Equality within Self-Realisation for it to be of any value or meaning to me.

If your starting point is ‘only to ‘Serve the Light’ for instance, then obviously your answer is only going to be in terms of what your starting point is. And that is quite important within the Equality Equation and also within the context of what one’s actual Self-Realisation is.

So in meditation which I participated in extensively over many, many years –I have gone through the guided meditations, I’ve done the circles, I’ve done the – you know the circle is where you develop ‘Psychic Abilities’ – participated in that over many years, many times and watched the development of Channels.

I have participated in guided meditations, I found it very difficult to ‘make up’ what they want you to imagine in the guided meditation. You know, “there’s a stream, and under the stream, go and be quiet, wash yourself”- you know, all of the guided meditations are very suggestive and your mind being extremely fast, it will create with a little bit of effort, after you’ve been to a few sessions of guided meditation, it’ll create exactly what the guidance is simulating. And unless it works for you, you’ll move unto another group until you get a group where suddenly your guided meditation is working for you and you go and dump all your stuff there in your imaginary world where you have your imaginary guide. In some cases one will actually, in the old days, have had communication with a guide. But in most cases and for most, this never happened. And only for the few it did and that was made as if it was very special. While in fact it wasn’t. It was just part of a much greater plan, which we will discuss in some future discussions.

Anyway, so – when I found that this guided meditation thing is just not getting it, because the moment I am imagining it, because my starting point is ‘What is Equal and One’, and what is ‘Image and Likeness’, which is the same thing – whenever I make it up, I immediately know that I am making it up, it is not real and I can change it. So therefore I stayed Here within my meditations and I tended to follow my own, call it, “guidance” in not creating some illusionary colourful picture in my mind as if it is real. To me the physical reality, what I see with my eyes, what I touch with my hands and that which it is made up of, which is the unseen that gives it structure and substance of it – that was reality. To actually have an experience that is in the mind, imaginary, made up, that is requiring my participation intensely and very seldom can one find point where something can enter that is not necessarily within the context of your own consciousness. But – that we will discuss at another stage.

Day 557: God's Will versus Free Choice

Continuing from Day 556: Are Demons the Key to Reality?:
"Yes I stopped them, and therefore I proved that self-forgiveness was the tool with self-honesty within which one can affect a real transformation in the physical while here in limited form. And that set the scene to a most astounding experience where the demonic were explored over a long period of time of about a year and a half where I set out to help every demon I can, no matter what unconditionally, to find self-forgiveness."

So after the gifts were given and I practiced them in, I was busy with them and I had regular meetings with the angels and guides from heaven. And through self-forgiveness we decided, me and my ex wife to give the marriage another go and there was another message from God coming through the ex wife from the messenger Chief and said that God is giving me a gift and that would be that the relationship will work, that we get another chance and it will be like absolutely fantastic.

And I could see that because I mean with self-forgiveness you develop quite an intense intimacy and for the first time I could actually embrace with understanding a relationship and truly work at making it work.

So, to my great surprise approximately a year later, my ex wife said she can’t handle it, she wants to move on and she’s met someone else. So I was in absolute shock because we have absolutely discussed the point, we’ve done the self-forgiveness and to me self-forgiveness is an absolute re-birth – obviously it wasn’t so for her.

And I had a discussion with Chief and I wanted to know how could God’s will – because the words used to me was that it was God’s will that we could do our marriage again – how could God’s will not be absolute was my question. There was silence and the answer that came is that she’s got free choice, and I said how could free choice override God’s will? I absolutely could not understand that because to me the obvious was that as long as free choice exists, man exist as ‘’less than, as a demonic force within where they can allow evil to exist and have the choice to choose evil.
But once you have made the choice for God equal and one, or as at that stage I saw it as image and likeness not equal and one, then there is no more choice, that’s the path you walk, that is what I was walking.

The shock was immense. So I realized that my very foundation, my trust in God and God ’s will and in his absolute perfection was shaken. I went on a trip to a Namibia and was in a state of shock where everything inside was dead, there was nothing, I couldn’t find anything. I was breathing, I was a piece of meat, I was speaking, I was doing but there was no feeling whatsoever – I equated that to death, because it’s like something dies. And this experience, this point of free choice, this in essence relationship with God then became one that was no longer one in trust. I was still walking, but understanding that choice could separate man from God. And I would have to walk with that understanding and not be able to have or be in a relationship or experience, such an absolute level of commitment until I have clearly proven to myself that I was in fact walking the image and likeness of God and I was in fact self-fulfilled.

So I started walking within that context, but the change was now absolute. I couldn’t return to my old life, I couldn’t do what I did before. The decisions I made stuck, if I tried to go back I couldn’t. The pain and discomfort was too immense, it was a physical resistance to go back to the old existence.
So I decided to completely submerge myself within finding a solution for this world and placing that first and everything else subject to that, because if that point was satisfied, all would have what is best for all. This was approximately 1995 - fascinating isn’t it? Now nearly 16 years ago.

Day 556: Are Demons the Key to Reality?

Continuing from: Day 555: Self-Forgiveness & Change:
”So I applied the points and all of these points are relevant to the eventual outcome and the eventual point of meeting Jesus, and the final transcendence, the final facing, the embracing of the demonic in the universe. So bear with me, because all the points lead to one astounding discovery - Something I didn’t expect and I’m sure nobody would’ve expected. Especially the way it happened, it couldn’t have been more unlikely for it to happen in such a way."

That was the fascinating thing about what was happening is that, you could not have thought it up. It was happening due to changes, due to actual universal application of oneself, due to the actual transformation would bring about this change because the transformation must have an effect not only on the mental, the metaphysical or in the hereafter – it must have an effect on the physical world here. While there was all this idea that the physical world was the illusion, but that was certainly being challenged more and more as I was doing the self-forgiveness, because what was revealing was pain. Pain was amazing because pain was a measurement, and if I didn’t do my forgiveness effectively the pain would remain. So pain will come at the point when somebody speaks, I react and there’s a pain. Until I have the actual structural re-alignment design of the forgiveness in place, it wouldn’t change. So I was developing a very clear way of directing myself and having a feedback with the physical body.

That would become extremely important eventually in dealing with the demons and finding out when they were deceiving and how they were deceiving and exactly what was the nature of the deception. Because within the universe, which is a reflection of the human body (which is what we found and I will explain that in detail as we go along in the various presentations to come) it was fascinating that one could possibly align all the possible matrixes in the universe within a human physical body even within one cell, and then you can establish the alignment, the relationship that is existent that created it, its origin, and its end, its cycle, its circle, the circle of life – which was always a system and it always had a beginning and an end and it could start at any point.

I mean a circle’s beginning and end is always the same point and it could be any point within the circumference of the circle. So it was fascinating that that played such a fascinating roll in these alignments, therefore your forces in the universe were finite although they were infinite in different ways that they could come about because there were just so many, there was still an end to it. The universe thus had a beginning and an end and therefore it was discernable. Therefore everything was measurable. Therefore one could actually assess everything once you could align and realize the great simplicity that in the small is the big and that in the big is the small, and that it is always a reflection of each other and therefore you could actually establish the actual reality repeatedly. And that was the key through the years that I practiced the gifts and the application of self-forgiveness and the alignment of my physical body to a stage where I could trust every single point no matter what. It took years of practice assessing, placing – I used during that time kinesiology over a period of twelve years utilizing a facilitator, testing out, and obviously the facilitator didn’t know about the other tests I was doing and didn’t know about the physical test and didn’t know how I was doing it, and didn’t know about the visual tests I was using to create cross-referencing alignment systems to test out what is happening and where is it going and how do one take care of it. Within the so called limited illusion that was this reality which was more and more showing itself to not be the illusion, because it was in fact a representation of reality. And what was starting to become clear is that maybe heaven, maybe that which we can’t see, that was maybe the actual illusion.

But let’s see where this takes us. Could it be that the demons held the key to reality in all ways, because the question was ‘what were demons and where were they coming from?’ ‘Why did they exist?’ ‘What was the origin of the demon?’ And it was only once I had really aligned myself and I was satisfied that I was starting to get to a point that I could make a real impact in the world then I start to consider that I am getting ready to take on the demons. And now the question arose ‘Why? Why the demons?’

Look the answer was simple to me because I had an emphatic and absolute trust in God and at that stage was certain that whatever was happening in my life and what I was understanding about self-forgiveness and the physical body and what I was shown was simply a test by God – seeing how the mind cross-referenced, that means that, what I found with the physical alignments once I disengaged the mind was that the left side of the body correspond with the left side of the brain and the right side of the body with the right side of the brain in fact but your mind interpretation system was cross-wired and therefore everything was in reverse. You couldn’t see straight what is here and so everything was like upside down and very difficult to discern. And I saw that the test of forgiveness, the way that God would set up the test would be that one must prove and stand and show in fact that forgiveness work with demons and that if a demon forgive themselves they can find their way back to God. And if one is certain within forgiveness – and at that stage I was very certain because I have tested it over many years within myself in my world – that in fact forgiveness will stand the absolute test and be the way through which evil can become life, because the human that I saw in this world was just as evil in many cases as any demon could ever be. And therefore, if God is all-knowing and all righteous and all of everything then he would’ve left us a way to get back. And that forgiveness from my experience and I have admitted to my life and how I really made a mess of it, I looked at it from the context if I can find my way with forgiveness, any being in the universe can, because I was as evil as they were. I have had within me, the things that I have done that was just the same, there was no difference. And many times they were just in thought but it was the same. The thoughts of rage and anger and harm and deception – it were all the same. Yes I stopped them, and therefore I proved that self-forgiveness was the tool with self-honesty within which one can affect a real transformation in the physical while here in limited form. And that set the scene to a most astounding experience where the demonic were explored over a long period of time of about a year and a half where I set out to help every demon I can, no matter what unconditionally, to find self-forgiveness.